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He still wanted me as much as I wanted him, and that knowledge made me respond with wanton recklessness that I didn’t think was even possible for me anymore.
I didn’t think.
I just allowed myself to feel every emotion his kiss rang out of me.
It had only ever been this way with him.
Only with Colin.
I felt like I was the most desirable woman in the world.
And didn’t want to waste a nanosecond of those sensations.
I knew it wouldn’t last.
I knew we couldn’t turn back the clock and rekindle what we’d had fourteen years ago.
Years ago, we’d been completely focused on mind-blowing sex.
I couldn’t say that the carnality wasn’t still there, but now there was something…more.
My hands roamed over his back as he consumed my mouth because all I wanted to do was explore this man all over again.
Colin abruptly lifted his head and I let out a little moan of protest. “Fucking hell, Emma!” he spat out. “We can’t do this. You’re still vulnerable and I’m pawing you like a horny teenager.”
He rolled onto his back, wrapped an arm around me, and pulled me close to him.
I was still panting as I put my head on his shoulder. “I wasn’t exactly complaining. I asked you to kiss me.”
“That doesn’t mean I should have done it,” he said in a graveled voice. “I’m your advisor. I should have known better. You probably have no idea what you want right now.”
Oh, I’d known exactly what I’d wanted.
Yes, I was vulnerable, but I always had been when it came to him.
“I knew that I wanted you to kiss me,” I said empathetically.
I wasn’t going to let him think he took advantage of me in a vulnerable position.
That would be complete and utter crap.
“We’ll chalk this up to temporary insanity and lack of sleep for both of us,” he decided. “It won’t happen again.”
I let out a long sigh.
It probably couldn’t happen again.
I was a forty-five-year-old mom to a teenage daughter.
It wasn’t like I could indulge in another fling with the father of my child.
Honestly, I probably wasn’t capable of having another fling with Colin.
Although I didn’t regret what had happened, the last one had broken my heart.
I was going to have to get over the lingering attraction I had to Colin and focus on the fact that we were Wren’s parents together and nothing more.
Maybe remembering I was a woman with my own needs hadn’t been such a great idea after all.
