Page 33 of Kane's Awakening
“I have every reason to be pissed,” I snapped back. “You stormed out of the restaurant Friday night, leaving me there to look like a fool, I don’t hear from you in days, and then you call me out of the blue and pretend like nothing ever happened? You’re delusional.”
“No, I’m just fucking horny.”
I could have strangled him right then. The rain picked up, so I switched on the windshield wipers. “What the hell do you want me to do about that, Kane?”
“I think you know,” he responded in that suggestive, arrogant tone of his. “So, why don’t you stop pretending like you don’t want to and come over?”
I glared through the rain, squeezing the phone tighter in my hand. “Call some other guy. I’m sure it’s not hard for you to find someone to screw.”
“I don’t want them. I want you.”
His words took me by surprise, managing to soften me up a little.
“It can’t happen,” I told him, not as angry as before. “We don’t want the same thing. I don’t need a commitment at this exact moment, but I have to know it’s possible. And it’s not with you.” When the light turned red, I stopped the car and rubbed at my temple with my free hand. Silence was on the other end of the phone, but the occasional sound of his breathing let me know he was still there. “I’m sorry. I just won’t do it anymore, Kane.”
“You saidwon’tthat time.” The arrogance was absent from his voice and in its place was only disappointment. Or sadness. “So, this is really goodbye? There’s nothing I can say to convince you?”
Once the light was green, I took off again.
My thoughts were all over the place. I wanted to take him up on his offer, but I also didn’t want to see him again, because I knew how I felt around him. It was a feeling I’d grown to crave, and it would crush me in the end if I allowed it to continue.
Kane was cocky and infuriating, but he was also warm and kind, especially after sex. The past two times, he’d wanted to cuddle afterward and we’d talked some before he’d left. Nothing of huge seriousness; mostly just general things about ourselves, but it had still beensomething.
“Ryker?”
“I’m here. Just thinking.”
“Come on, man,” he said in a husky voice that made my dick stir. “One last time won’t do any harm. I’m so damn hard it hurts.”
He moaned and exhaled before panting into the phone, his breaths becoming quicker.
“Are you touching yourself?” I asked, both shocked and so turned on I almost wrecked the car.
“Yeah. What do you wanna do about it?”
Don’t do it, I told myself.You’ll only get hurt.
However, I found myself saying instead, “What’s your address?”
He’d always come over to my house the past times we’d had sex, so I had no idea where he lived. After he gave me the directions, I realized he actually didn’t live too far from where I currently was.
I’d lived in Van Buren for a little under a year—moving from Fort Smith, the bigger city about ten minutes away—so I was pretty familiar with the area, knowing most of the street names without having to think too much into it. And it was small, which helped. The twins attended the Van Buren school district, so when I found a house in the area, I’d snatched it up while I could.
I chuckled as I caught on to the fact that I was trying to fill my head with thoughts of the town instead of letting myself think of how Kane had been touching himself while on the phone with me. The more I thought about it, the more my foot pressed on the gas pedal.
When I made it to his house, I got out of my car and walked up the steps before knocking on the front door. Barking sounded on the other end, and then I heard Kane speaking in the kind of voice you used with babies, telling the dog everything was okay.
I smiled.
There’s his soft side.
The door opened, and my breath caught in my throat.
Kane was shirtless—only wearing baggy sweat pants that hung low on his hips, showing off the mouthwatering abdominal muscles that went into a V-shape and disappeared under his green checkered boxers. His messy hair only added to his appeal, looking like he’d rolled around in bed before answering the door.
When my gaze finally focused on his face, he was smirking.
“See something you like?” he asked with a raised brow, looking smug as ever.
