Page 68 of Kane's Awakening
“Nothing happened between me and Max,” he said, touching my cheek and turning my face back to him. “We went on two dates—one for lunch and the other was dinner at his house, but then I told him it wasn’t going to work out.”
“Did you sleep with him?” Yeah, it wasn’t fair of me to ask, but it was killing me. Ihadto know.
“No. He wanted to, but I didn’t. We kissed, but that’s all.” I looked back at him just in time to see the blush in his cheeks. “Honestly, I thought of you the whole time, too, during the kiss.”
The jealousy that had spiked at hearing the guy’s name was quickly snuffed out by the words that followed. Ryker hadn’t fucked him.
“Why?”
Holding my face in his hands, he looked at me in silence before saying, “Because dammit, Kane, you’re all I want. You are everything in a man that infuriates the hell out of me, but I keep coming back for more. Even though you’re stubborn and have asshole tendencies… even though you’re unfiltered and arrogant… Iseeyou. The real you.” He smiled before pressing our heads together. “I’m aware of how stupid that sounds, but it’s true. There are moments when you look at me where I see your kind heart and your passion. Sometimes there’s a light in your eyes after I kiss you, one that you then hide.”
I couldn’t speak, so I stayed quiet and just let him do the talking.
“And the way I feel around you is unlike anything I’ve ever felt before,” he continued, pulling back and looking into my eyes. “I can’t get you out of my head, and I’m tired of fighting it. You might be an asshole… but I want you to bemyasshole.”
I snorted a laugh, not expecting him to say something like that. Although fucking hilarious, it was also sweet, and it totally sounded like somethingIwould’ve said.
“I want that, too,” I admitted, hiding my face in the crease of his neck so he wouldn’t see the way my eyes had watered. “But I have to take things slow. Goin’ on dates is one thing, but relationships. Boyfriends. I’m going to need some time to process it all. Can you be patient with me?”
Ryker laid his head on mine and moved his hand up and down my spine, comforting me. “Take as much time as you need. I’m not going anywhere.” Then, he jumped and grabbed his phone. “Shit. I have to go.”
I frowned and pouted my bottom lip. “But you just said you weren’t leaving.”
He laughed. “Please don’t give me that face. It’s going to be hard enough getting out of this bed.”
“Where are you going?” I asked, too damn curious to shut up.
“I’m picking up the twins to take them to breakfast, and then we’re going to a movie.” He pressed his lips to my forehead and stayed that way for several seconds. “I really don’t want to leave you,” he whispered against my skin. “Come with me.”
“What?” I leaned back and met his stare. “Dude, that’s like ahugestep… meeting the kids and everything. Not sure I’m ready for that.”
“I can introduce you to them as my friend,” he suggested, staring back at me with such certainty in his eyes. “I’m allowed to have friends. So, it doesn’thaveto be a big thing.” He looked away and the eagerness in his voice waned. “You don’t have to, though. I know the topic of my kids is what put us at odds before.”
I didn’t have a problem with children, so it wasn’t like I hated them. Dating a guywithkids was different, though, and meant that guy wanted more from me than just sex. He’d want to settle down with someone. So, it had always been a rule of mine.
However, I wanted Ryker and had agreed totryfor more.
“I’ll go,” I answered, pushing him back on the mattress and leaning over him. I ran my hands over his chest and down his sides, loving the soft muscles beneath my palms. His chest didn’t have much hair, just a light dusting, and it was so fucking hot. “How much time do we have before we have to be there?”
His lips twitched with a smile, and his breathing picked up pace. When he swallowed, his Adam’s apple moved in a way that made me want to nibble it. “I said I’d be there around ten.”
I glanced at my phone and smirked. “That gives us forty-five minutes.”
He hardened against me and gripped my sides, trailing his hands up and down my back. “I’m sure we could findsomeway to pass the time.”
Desire flickered in his gaze and the way he bit down on his bottom lip had me groaning. I was so fucking hard it was a miracle the damn thing hadn’t torn through my boxers. With my head having been in such a shitty place the past week, I needed some kind of escape.
Having Ryker ride my dick was just what the doctor ordered.
I grinned at my own little joke before crushing my mouth to his.
His facial hair tickled, but I loved it. He was all man and the exact opposite of the twinks I’d once sought out. A harder body where I was used to slightly softer and shorter. Everything about him turned me on—the deep moans as I kissed down his throat, the smell of his skin as I nibbled his collarbone, and the feel of his body wrapped around mine.
“God, Kane. I need you,” he whined, raising his hips and grinding against my dick.
“You’re not ready yet. I don’t wanna hurt you,” I said before kissing down his stomach and swirling my tongue in his belly button.
He gripped the sheet under him and tensed as his chest quickly rose and fell.
