Page 70 of Alpha's Embrace
“But lust doesn’t mean fated. It’s just lust.” I sniffed.
“No, it doesn’t. But lust accompanies the feeling. The feeling is stronger. It is a knowing deep inside. It’s like being drawn without your will, like a deep calling.”
“I do feel that. Different from how I’ve ever felt before.”
“Yes. And bonds are sacred. You fight them and you suffer. You ignore them but they don’t go away that easily. I tried to will it away. It only got stronger.”
“Me, too. I tried to block my feelings. I tried! I’m sorry, I’m so sorry!” I bumped my forehead against his shoulder.
“Stop this now. I didn’t succeed in blocking you because I didn’t want to succeed. I wanted you more than anything. And the bond itself knew. It’s strong, very strong, and it will flourish no matter what.”
Now Geo’s fingers rested on the waistband of my jeans. Slowly, they undid the first button and slid the zipper downward.
My cock was pressed up against my belly and as soon as he parted the cloth it popped out, rigid and wet at the tip.
His hands pushed the jeans down my hips and they slid to puddle at my ankles. When I stepped out of them, I was fully naked before him, the shower raining behind him, the room humid with steam.
He ran his hands down my bare hips.
I wanted him to touch me, hold me, tease me, fuck me. I wanted everything with this Alpha man, this king, my so-honest and honorable chief of staff.
Instead of doing what I wanted right then, he gave me a little push, opening the shower door. “In,” he said softly.
I stepped over the threshold and under the warm fall of water, my cock bobbing against my abdomen, my body heating and luxuriating as the water flowed over me. I ducked my head to get my hair wet and wash away my infernal tears.
I loved showers and baths. I had always wanted to take my time with them, but the nurses rushed me, never letting me linger. I tilted my head back and turned, allowing the warm water to pour fully over my hair.
I looked to the side and saw a little ledge holding soap, shampoo and conditioner. When I turned to reach for the soap, I heard the squeak of the shower door and felt the water against my back and side diminish.
A warm body pressed up against me from behind, arms going around my slippery waist. A large protrusion jutted up against my tailbone.
My heart stopped.
Geo’s cock slid against me as he pulled me to him, the touch so intimate my vision went dark for a few seconds.
I almost came from that small contact, and combined with the knowledge of how much he wanted me, it made my thoughts spin.
My balance wavered, and it was as if my feet were not reliable anymore. I leaned back against him for support. Yes, for support, I told myself. It was all I could do.
His large hands clasped across my wet stomach, thumb edging my belly button, and I placed my own over his and turned my head. My wet hair streamed against his chest.
Slowly, I turned in his arms and we came face to face. My lips found his without me even trying, and he pressed forward, his tongue swiftly entering my mouth, licking, probing. I met his tongue with my own, deepening the kiss.
Our cocks met, skin to throbbing skin.
The water pounding our shoulders and backs seemed to cocoon us, erasing everything but who we were here and now, each to the other. My guilt still stirred, but desire relegated to the back of the line. It would be dealt with another time.
Steam rose, thickening in my nose and throat. The kiss grew sweeter, harder. The Burn inside me forced me to want to take action. Now. But I held back. I’d practiced my entire adult life holding myself back, delaying my gratifications so I did not suffer injury.
But that practice did not take into account the pure ecstasy of being in Geo’s arms. My mate. My bondmate.
I moaned into his mouth. My cock throbbed and again I thought I might come, but I managed not to. I felt every thrum of Geo’s heartbeat, the pulse of it in his cock pushing up hard against my stomach.
I whined, leaning forward with my weight.
He pulled back. “Soon,” he said.
He reached around me for the soap and began to lather my entire body.
