I collapsed on top of him, simply breathing for a moment, and listening to him breathe as well.
“Feel better?” Eli asked after a minute, a lazy smile on his face.
I gave him a kiss. “Much better.”
I’d wanted to go back to the past tonight, and I hadn’t quite managed to do that, but maybe what we had now was better. I wanted to hold on to it, even if that meant being an awful son. That much I knew.
But even so, there were still things I had to do in the wake of my father’s passing. My sister was right; I had to step up and be a leader. I wasn’t going to marry a woman of my mother’s choosing, no, but I was going to move back here and take over the business. I didn’t mind that so much. Being the head of the company was all I’d aspired to be since I was a kid, and moving back here meant being closer to Eli and Jake. The part I minded was the in-between.
I rolled off Eli so we could both get into a more comfortable position where I wasn’t crushing him.
“I have to leave for a bit,” I told him then.
“Now?”
“Not now, but tomorrow.” I stroked some damp hair back from my face, sitting up on the couch and pulling Eli against my side. “I have to go back to Boston and transfer the hotel I’ve been in charge of to someone else.”
“Does that mean…?”
“I’m moving back here, yes.”
“But that’s great.” Eli leaned on me. “I’d love if you came back here. Means we can spend more time together.”
“Yeah.” I took his hand and kissed his fingers. “But it might take a few weeks before everything is settled. And we haven’t even told Jake yet.”
“I told you not to worry about that. We’ll figure things out. We can take care of this when you come back.”
“Okay. If you say so.”
I only hoped he was right.
22
Elias
We endedup spending the whole night and most of the next day at the cabin. I’d taken the day off work, knowing full well that I’d catch shit over it, but not giving a damn. I was preparing the charity event mostly on my own, they could manage without me for one day while I took care of my grieving boyfriend. Which turned out to be not all that difficult, really. Apparently Matt’s preferred way of grieving was having a ton of sex. I could provide that—happily. Especially when it felt as great as it did that night in the cabin.
Sex between me and Matt had always been sizzling, but now I felt like we’d added a new layer to it somehow that made it even better. More intimate, in a way.
And I loved all those marks he’d left on me, even if they made me feel a little bit awkward as we left the cabin the following day and stepped out into the sun. I considered wearing a big scarf to cover up, but then I caught Matt’s eyes lingering on a mark he’d left on the side of my neck, and there was so much heat in his gaze that I decided not to.
There would be questions, yes, but nobody could force me to respond. I got the feeling that Matt wanted to let the world know that we were an item now, and I wanted that too. But our official announcement would have to wait. At least until after we’d told Jake the full truth about everything.
Otherwise the rumors flying around could well hit on the truth before he heard it from us.
“Thanks again for last night,” Matt said as we walked out to our cars.
I gave him a small smile. “It was my pleasure. How soon do you have to leave town?”
“It’s probably best I go as soon as possible. The earlier I get there, the earlier I’ll be back, and…” He shook his head. “Really don’t want to stay at the mansion any longer.”
“Yeah, I get that. No offense, but your family…” I shook my head.
“They can be a little difficult, but they’re not all bad. They just have very strong opinions about how the world works.”
“You mean they have outdated opinions about how the world works.”
He sighed. “True. They’re still my family, though.”