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“No, give me more,” I replied because I wanted him to keep going, because I needed something other than the longing in my heart to focus on.
Adam easily complied with my request. He couldn't go too deep in our current position, my back pressed to his chest, but he did what he could to make me squirm, his fingers running over my nips and his cock brushing my inner walls in ever quicker movements. For a few minutes, I was suspended in a state of mindless bliss, focusing only on the feeling of Adam inside of me.
It was heaven.
And of course, it couldn't last forever.
It didn't take long until Adam spent himself in me, grunting and digging his fingers into my skin as his climax washed over him. I didn't mind that his nails scraped my skin; I was glad that I could make him happy, even if only just for now.
“God, Lucas...” It was all that Adam said as he came down from his orgasm, but there was so much emotion in his voice that, that moment, I knew exactly how Adam felt about me, and I knew exactly how I felt about him too. Every fiber of my being longed to be with him, to stay in his embrace.
If that wasn't love, then what was?
Somehow, before I even realized what was happening to me, I'd fallen for this alpha. I'd fallen hard and fast and deep. All whilehedidn't even know who I was.WhatI was.
Would he still want to hold me when he found out that I'd been lying to him all this time?
That I was carrying his baby and couldn't see a way to keep it?
He being who he was, he actually might. That thought disturbed me more than anything.
I didn't deserve him.
A lump formed in my throat and I had the hardest time swallowing past it. What good did it do me to know how we felt about each other when I couldn't change the fact that I'd screwed up so colossally that this relationship was doomed anyway?
“Lucas?” Adam's warm breath brushed my ear as he spoke. “Are you all right?”
Had I tensed? “I'm fine,” I said. One more lie on my list, but at least for tonight, I wanted to keep Adam's arms around me and pretend like we were just a normal couple. I wondered what that might be like. Would I still have met Adam if I was just like any other omega? We wouldn't be rooming together if I was, but we might have found each other anyway. I liked that fantasy, the thought that, somewhere in a parallel universe, there was a version of me and Adam who could be happy together until the end of their days.
“Are you sure you're okay?” Adam asked, placing a kiss on the side of my neck.
“Yeah,” I said on an exhale, turning in his arms so I could burrow my face in his chest. “Just don't ask.”
“Okay,” Adam said softly, pulling me closer with one arm while running the fingers of his free hand through the hair on the back of my head. “Will you tell me tomorrow?”
I nodded wordlessly.Tomorrow. I could do that. I would tell him everything.
But for now I just pressed myself to him as if we were lost in the middle of a snowstorm and he was my only source of heat. He didn't seem to mind, and, keeping true to his word, he didn't ask again if I was fine. No, he simply held me and ignored the drops of wetness that fell from my eyes to his skin.
He was exactly what I needed that moment. He was exactly what I needed, period.
Which only made everything so much worse.
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I woke up to the ringing of my phone. Blearily, I opened my eyes to sunlight streaming in through the window and onto the blanket covering both me and Lucas.
What time was it? Had we slept through our morning classes? For me, that wasn't unusual, but for Lucas, it was. My friend took his education very seriously. Maybe I'd just tired him out too much last night. Or maybe there was something seriously wrong with him, even if he didn't want to tell me what it was. He'd seemed so upset last night. He'd said he was going to tell me today. I hoped he would.
“Make it stop,” he groaned as I looked at him.
“Make what stop?”
He gestured vaguely at my phone.
Oh.
