Page 19 of A Reindeer Wish for Love
I couldn’t get comfortable, not because of Mason, but because I wearing this expensive Tom Ford suit.It wasn’t me.I didn’t know how to be comfortable in it because I was worried that I’d spill something on it or sit in something in a cab.The suit was wearing me, and it owned me, instead of the other way around.
I was still standing looking around the large living area when Mason handed me a glass of brandy.I knew how to drink it—slowly, from watching the rich and the famous shows.
Mason placed his snifter on the large table before us, and we sat together on the white sectional.“This is beautiful,” I said, passing my hand over it.“And that tree is out of—” Mason cut me off because I was a lost for words.
“One of April’s friends is a designer and she tried to introduce him to me hoping I would date him.”
“And did you?”
“We went on a date once.It was a complete disaster.He was too old and pushy.And he drank and told me too much.A man wants to find out things for himself.Well, I do.He wasn’t my type, and it was all a setup, because April had been dating his sister and she wanted to divorce me and say I had been unfaithful.I’m not that kind of man.”Mason turned to me with a sadness I couldn’t understand.Here he was handsome and beautiful and rich.
“What kind of man are you?”I asked.He raised an eyebrow and moved closer to me.
“The kind of man who doesn’t cheat.When I fall in love it’s for good.I’m not easily overcome by flattery, and I like a man like you.Young and impressionable where I can teach you and you can teach me about the gay lifestyle.I’ve been married a long time, and I had feelings for men, but I never met a man I thought I wanted to be with until now.I never met anyone I’d risk everything for until I met you.”His voice told me everything I needed to know.He was kind and gentle, a man who didn’t love often, but loved deeply.
That was a lot to take in.I glanced into his eyes, and I saw the truth.He needed me as much as I needed him, but in a different way.“What do you want from me?”I asked.
Mason didn’t hesitate, “I want your respect and love.”I knew I could give him love, and I had a lot of respect because of his honesty.I wanted to believe everything he’d said to me, but I had been hurt in the past by men I thought would be my soul mate.
“Before we move to the next phase of our relationship...”I said, “Are you a top or bottom?”He glared at me as if he didn’t know what that meant.But of course, he was a top.He had demonstrated that in the men’s room.He had never thought about any other way.
“I ask you this because I’m younger and I like to experiment.”
“Do you mean you want to...?”
Chapter 10
Mason
Ihad been stunnedby the question and never thought about having a man inside me.I had been used to having sex with a woman one way and it never occurred to me that I could find satisfaction another way.
“But wouldn’t that hurt?”I asked curiously.Had he said no I would have known he had lied, but he answered truthfully.And there was a man I could trust.
“Yes, of course, but it has to be more than one occasion and then after careful use of lube and a condom you will hardly feel it.”
That meant I would have to commit to this as long as my relationship existed with Clay.“Are you saying this is what you want?”
