Page 27 of A Reindeer Wish for Love
“Never had a virgin I see.What did it feel like?”Marty asked, and Tyler hit his hand.“Ow.”I wasn’t going to answer that question and they knew it.
“To tell you the truth...”They leaned in, “It feels like I just fucked up my life and first job ever.”
“Well, didn’t we warn you.Tyler said—” I raised my hand.
“I know what you said, and you were right.”I told them everything that occurred.How his wife came in and she has a girlfriend waiting in her car, and the wife said she was in in love with her girlfriend.However, they were both in love with Mason’s money and the money was hard to give up, and that’s why she reassured him that he had nothing to worry about, but she went back on her word, and got evidence that he had a lover as well and the lover was ten years his junior.”
“I don’t know what to say, Clay, only I’m sorry,” Tyler admitted.“I just didn’t think you would because I thought I knew you.”He did, but he didn’t know what arrogance of youth can do to your brain when you think you’re in love at first sight.I thought Mason was the one man I could depend on and spend my life with.
“Mason said he could fix it, and there’s no need to worry.”
“And you believed him?”Marty questioned.
“I’ll know when I go in to work tomorrow.My first day on the job.”
“You’ll know when no one wants to look you in the eyes.You’ll know when they’ll want to stay far away from you as if a bomb would go off and take them out too.And you’ll know when they have this exchange of Christmas gifts thing they do in offices, and no one wants to pick your name or you to pick theirs because they don’t think they’ll get their gift because you won’t be there.
I’ve been where you are, Clay, ask Tyler.Tyler shook his head in agreement with Marty.They won’t want to be within ten feet of you.Those are the signs.But one thing you can count on is if you got Mason crazy about you as you are about him, then you won’t have to worry.”
I thought they were trying to make me feel better.All I thought about was this was the worst Christmas of my life, well not the worst.
“He’s not going to be into the office for a week.”Tyler glanced at Marty and they both turned to me once more, but this time they didn’t say a word.I sat looking at the both of them waiting for a good word, but none came after that statement.
They lowered their heads and started eating their cold breakfast of eggs and toast.When I rose from the sofa to take a shower and prepare for tomorrow, “We left you something for breakfast.Get it before the cat does,” Marty said.
“I’m not hungry.”
“It doesn’t matter.Eat anyway, because you have to build your strength.Being a top isn’t easy.”And Tyler hit him on the arm once more.“You have to stop doing that,” Marty said.“You know I’m delicate.
“I will if you stop telling our business.”Then Tyler reached for Marty and kissed him hard.Reached for his hand and took him in the direction of the bedroom.“We have all Sunday to lie in bed and in each other’s arms and go over our Christmas list.It will be a short one this year because it seems Clay isn’t moving out.”
They weren’t showing off in front of me because that would be the last thing they would do.They were honestly horny for each other from the day I met the two of them on the Columbia campus and as usual I was sitting alone.They took me under their wings and helped me through hard times like now.They were good friends and if I do nothing else, I needed to make it to help my friends along the way.
They were a new couple and even though this could have been a fragile relationship like mine and Mason’s, they never made me feel as if I wasn’t a part of their family.They helped me with everything, and I wanted to repay them even though they didn’t want me to.They literally saved my life, and it was Christmas as well, and that was the worst Christmas I had experienced.
When I finally admitted I had been in an abusive relationship, they came to my apartment packed my things and brought me to live with them.As we were leaving my boyfriend’s apartment, my boyfriend had returned in the middle of the move.
He stood in front of them, and said, “Who the fuck are you and what are you doing in my apartment?”
“You don’t need to know our names, only that we came to get our friend.And if you do anything to stop us—” Tyler barked.
“I’m going to call the police.”
“Good, call the police and ask for Sargent Cole.He’s in the station house up the block,” Tyler said.“And while you’re at it, tell him how you verbally abused our friend and physically abused him.And make no mistake about it, he’s gay too and he has a hard on for men like you.”
“I was just saying—”
“I know what the fuck you were saying, Pearson.I know your name, and if you contact Clay or come near him, Cole and I will see that you wished you’d never heard the name Clayton.Wipe him out of your memory, you sick fuck, and move and let us pass,” Marty said.
Marty had shocked me because he had the balls I never thought he had.He appeared to be the submissive in their relationship.He always gave in to Tyler in almost everything I observed.If they wanted to go out to dinner, he’d tell Tyler to choose.When they bought groceries, Marty suggested where he’d preferred to go, but never did.He’d insist and when Tyler wanted to purchase anything, whether it was a new shirt or furniture for their inadequate apartment, he’d make a suggestion, but Tyler always seemed to get his way, and Marty never appeared to get angry.
Maybe there was something about their relationship that I didn’t understand, and as I looked from the outside I didn’t have the entire picture.Marty had a way of getting what he wanted.And the Marty I thought I knew, I didn’t know at all because you only knew a person when you got close enough to smell, taste, and experience them in a personal way.
Once I rid myself of Pearson, my life was different in that I had peace, and I was far happier to accomplish the things I needed to.For example, taking my test for law school and passing.
After that time, I didn’t have a man, and one who distracted me from what was important in my life and because I’d been scared off by Pearson.However, now I was ready to live and love again, and I was older and as they said wiser.I wanted the feeling of happiness if not forever, but for now, because I did know that the sensation of happiness didn’t last forever.I just had to hold on to it and try to make that desire I had for Mason last for a few mornings.
I strode into the kitchen and had to fight the resident cat for my breakfast because I didn’t feel like going out alone.Marty and Tyler were in the bed, and when I climbed into my sofa bed they were busy catching up on their lovemaking they’d neglected because of work and chores that kept most people busy during the week.
