Page 49 of A Little Bit Reckless
“You’ve been avoiding me,” I said, out of breath and honestly frustrated. I didn’t understand why I was fucking out of breath when all I did was jog across the quad to talk to her. I worked out like a lot but my heart was basically charging a million beats a minute right now.
It only picked up its beats when I looked at her.
She had a flush across her chest that matched the one in her cheeks. I was crowding her because I didn’t trust her not to leave now that I had her in one place. This meant I essentially had her pinned up against a tree, and though I shouldn’t be looking at her chest,her breasts,they were right in front of me. The top two buttons of her white blouse were open, which meant I could easily see how ample her chest was, supple. Bow was a tiny girl but the swell could easily fill my hands.
Fuck.
She was noticing me too. Or at least wasawareof me. She gazed at my chest too, my pecs rising and falling with heavy breaths. I wore a Pembroke sweatshirt but how clearly she excited me could easily be seen.
I closed the distance. “We need to talk about what you saw the other night.”
Her lashes flickered. I’d told myself I was going to approach Bow today to make sure she was okay. The situation had been awkward. It was awkward for me because I still didn’t know what happened that night between Wells and me. He wasn’t talking to me either. I’d sent him several texts.
I just knew Wells had clearly been in his head that night. Something got him riled up and the two of us ended up fuckingagain. I didn’t want to do it. I was tired of that fucker playing with my emotions.
But I wanted him. I wanted his weight on me,his heat.I wasn’t normally about submitting when it came to sex, but with Wells, that was what I wanted. I didn’t want to feel so strong. I wanted my walls broken down. I wanted to bevulnerable.
It was different with Bow.
With Bow,Iwanted to be her force of safety. I wanted to be a safe spacefor hervulnerability, and it was so confusing. I wanted to be both things, and I felt like a selfish asshole because how could I want two very different things with two very different people?
But then I saw Bow that night. I saw her watching us, and something eased inside me. Like it was okay to want both, have both.
Bow’s lips parted. “Bru?—”
“Wells and I started fucking at parties,” I said, getting right into it. Bow’s eyes flashed. I nodded. “It started with partners… a woman between us.”
I studied her reaction to that. I watched the breath leave her red lips at a rapid pace and the muscle in my chest kicked up more beats.
“Eventually, we forgot about the woman,” I continued, getting even closer to her. “It started just being about us. It was a nice release after everything that happened in Europe.”
That was how Wells got me to go to sex parties. He knew I was caught up in my head about being kicked out of school.
“So he is the someone else you were talking about,” Bow said, and I nodded again. Her face got even redder. “You like him.”
“I love him,” I said, not beating around the bush. Bow’s mouth parted, and I swallowed. “I do, which is whythisconfuses me.”
“This?”
I touched her mouth, just a brush of my knuckle, but it was enough to send a weakness to Bow’s knees. I knew because she wavered before pressing herself against the tree, and she gasped when I parted her lips with that same knuckle. “Our kiss, Bow, was just as intense. Justone kissfrom you was…”
Her mouth opened wide for my finger, spreading, and my cock twitched in my jeans.
My jaw moved. “That one kiss from you in my car was just as intense as what I experienced at those parties, Bow.”
Which wascrazyto me. Wells and I had a lot of hot fucking sex, but one kiss with this girl got me in my head.
One touch.
My hand touched her throat. I couldn’t help it. I wanted to feel the column of her throat and how I affected her.
She didn’t disappoint. Her swallow was so hard and that gotmehard, which was so fucked up. This was my best friend’s little sister.
And somehow that didn’t matter anymore.
“I know you saw us together, Wells and me,” I said, my chest brushing hers now, and I was happy that I got her behind this tree. I didn’t want anyone else privy to this moment. My thumb touched her throat. “Did that bother you? Seeing me with someone else?”
She kissed me and I assumed that meant she had feelings for me. If so, her seeing me with someone elseshouldbother her.
