Page 18 of Top Shelf
Closing his eyes, he gathered me close and hugged me tight. That one was very obviously for him, so I squeezed him until his body relaxed, and then he reached around me and turned off the water. “Something tells me you prefer to dry on your own.”
I laughed, feeling a little self-conscious. “I’m transparent, I guess. And picky.”
“I think you’re just particular. And I like that.”
He held the shower door open, then handed me a towel, and I wrapped up because the feeling of cold air after a hot showerwas almost unbearable. But the scratchy, starched towels were worse.
I couldn’t focus on anything until I was mostly dry, and I scrubbed at my hair so it didn’t drip down my neck. When I was done, Quinn had already left the bathroom, and I took a moment to stare at myself in the mirror.
I looked the same. Brown eyes, olive skin, thick black hair falling in loose waves around my face. I had my same sharp jawline and full lips that seemed maybe a bit fuller from all the kissing I’d done.
But otherwise, I was still me. Still just…
Ferris.
I don’t know why I expected to look different after losing my virginity that way.
I supposed it was a comfort knowing I could walk back into the house and no one would know what I’d done. Well, except Colton and probably Eli and Cosmo, if not a few of the other guys in our year, because Colton did have a big fucking mouth. But it wasn’t going to be some big scandal.
The secret that this had been my first time would still be safe. The only one who knew that was Quinn, and deep down, I believed with every fiber of my being that he would keep that to himself.
“Ferris? If you’re changing your mind—” came Quinn’s voice from beyond the bathroom door.
“No!” Wow, okay, that was a little too eager. I turned away from the mirror and walked into the bedroom, where Quinn was lounging on the bed, both legs stretched out in front of him. Oh god, he was naked.
Oh god,Iwas naked.
I didn’t know why that mattered now. Why it was so much more profoundly obvious now that we were out of the shower,but a strange self-consciousness crept over me, and my chest went hot.
My hand flew down to cover my dick, which was half-hard again, and I realized there was no point. He’d already seen all of me. Like…all of me. He’d touched me in places I hadn’t even touched myself yet.
It was impossible not to feel utterly seen, but I didn’t feel mocked, even when he let out a soft chuckle as he watched me flail.
“You were saying?” he pressed.
I took a deep breath, then walked toward the bed. “I haven’t changed my mind. Um.” I thumbed behind me. “I wanted to see if I…”
“Had any marks?”
My skin heated. I hadn’t even looked for those, damn it! “No, um. If I looked different?”
He sat up a little and made grabby hands at me. My body obeyed the wordless command as I shuffled over and finally found myself within touching distance. He didn’t grab like I expected. He just coasted a touch down both of my arms as he took me in.
“You look the same,” he finally murmured. Wrapping his massive hands around my hips, he kept going until they were cupping my ass. I had a sudden and wild urge to sit in them. Instead, I gripped the tops of his shoulders and leaned forward, allowing him to take a lot of my weight. “You look good,” he said very softly.
“How do you, uh…how should I…” I didn’t know how to ask where he wanted me and not sound completely fucking naïve.
He grinned and pulled one hand away so he could cup my jaw. “Do you still want to top, or have you changed your mind about that?”
I jolted. He just…saidthe words. Just like that. Now I knew how people felt when what little filter I had burned out. “Um.” The truth was, I hadn’t figured out much past my plan to lose my virginity. I hadn’t exactly thought it through. Asking him to have sex with me had been a total spur-of-the-moment thing, so…
“Hey, it’s okay.”
Why was he—oh. I was shaking. I wriggled my whole body for a second and then said, “Can I sit?”
He leaned back, taking me with him until I was straddling his thighs. His hard dick was right there, lying on his stomach, plump and darkly flushed and gorgeous. I wanted to suck on it. To see how the weight of it felt on my tongue. How it tasted.
I licked my lips, and he chuckled again, dragging a touch over my collarbone as his eyes followed my gaze. “You can taste me if you want.”
