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grown out into his eyes, and he needed a good pore minimizer or
something, because exhaustion and worry had left his face looking saggy
and old. “I really, really hate you.”
Penny grabbed his hand as she negotiated the Denver traffic. She
was so confident driving, he thought miserably. Chris was too. He was
going to be in charge of the driving now, when they didn"t have Tim do
it. He sucked. He went too slow, went too fast, got confused at
intersections. Oh my God. He was going to have to adopt Tim so they
could go anywhere outside of Folsom.
“Stop it,” Penny said softly. “I was teasing. I can see your head
gears getting all stuck. You"re thinking you don"t look good enough,
you"re not good enough to take care of him, to do what you need to do.
You"re thinking like that kid who couldn"t be a grown-up when he was
fifteen. You"re going to do fine, and I think he pulled through all that
surgery just for you, so just… just calm down. You"ve got a playoff in
two days; now stop living up in your head like that. Tell me to piss off or
something, but don"t do that to yourself.”
“You"ve got all this confidence,” Xander grumbled, almost to
himself. “Where do the two of you get all this confidence? The only
place I know what I"m doing is when I"m on the court.”
“I can"t answer that,” Penny told him, turning into the hospital
parking lot. “Or I can, but I think that"s something you need to hear from
my brother. I know you held us all together in the last four days—and I
don"t know why you can"t see it. Now, here. Get out and tell Mandy and
my folks to come down. I"m going to take them home for a while, and
you get him all to yourself.”
“Mandy and your folks? Which one of them are you putting on the
roof?” he asked, unfolding himself from the front seat.
Penny grimaced at him. “Mandy—but we"re putting her stick-