My brows furrow. He lets out this huffed groan of frustration as he flops back down to the bed. His hands leave my body to cover his face.
“Hey, talk to me.” I grab his hands, pulling them away from his face so I can look him in the eyes.
He doesn’t let me, closing his eyes instead.
“Eli,” I say a little more firmly. “Look at me.” His eyes snap open at my command. “Talk to me. Tell me what you're thinking.”
He licks his lips, hesitation bright in his expression. “I’ve only been with you.” His words are soft, so low I don’t think I heard him right.
“You’ve only been with me?”
He nods his head. “I—I was a virgin before we met this summer.” His eyes are brimming with vulnerability. My heart swells.
“I was your first?” I ask, unable to stop the smile on my face. I got to be this sweet boy’s first time. Fucking hell, I can’t cry. Not when we’re about to have sex. God, I hope we’re about to have sex. After that confession, I don’t think I’ve ever wanted this man more than I do right now.
He nods his head. “Yeah. And I haven’t been with anyone since. I don’t want anyone but you, Laney... Well—”
I shut him up by capturing his lips with mine, kissing him desperately. I know what he was going to say; I’m the only one other than Kai. And I’m fine with that.
But right now, he’s mine. I want his mind on me and only me. Everything else can wait.
“Can I fuck you?” I ask breathlessly before kissing him again, my tongue tangling with his. He moans, nodding his head.
“Please, god, please. Laney, fuck me.”
We go at it like two horny teenagers, ripping one another's clothes off as fast as possible. It’s awkward, and we fumble, but I love it. We’re laughing while sneaking kisses until we’re both naked, tangled together.
Elijah is on his back again with me naked on top of him. “You’re so beautiful,” he whispers in awe as his eyes drink me in.
I smile, letting him take his fill. “Thank you.” I grab his hand and kiss his palm. “And thank you for letting me be your first.”
“Thank you for making it perfect.”
“Can I tell you something?” I ask, leaning over him as I adjust my position. It has my breasts right over his face. He groans, sucking one of my nipples into his mouth before doing the same to the other.
“Anything.”
Grabbing his cock, I give it a squeeze before stroking him slowly from root to tip. I’m already dripping for him, aching to have his perfect cock inside me.
As I line his tip up with my entrance, I slowly sink down, forcing him inside me. I moan, eyes rolling back at the delicious stretch of his length. “I’m falling hard for you, sweet boy,” I gasp, eyes opening so that I can look down at his blissed out ones. Leaning forward, I suck his lower lip into my mouth and bite down hard, loving the whimper that leaves him. “Falling in love with you.”
“Oh fuck,” he whimpers, gripping my hips. His hips lift up, thrusting the rest of his cock inside me. “Laney,” he groans my name out like a prayer and a plea all at the same time.
“I’m right here, sweet boy,” I croon, brushing the sweaty hair out of his face.
“I love you,” he sounds like he’s crying.Shit. Did I do something wrong?“Fuck.” He goes to hide his face, but I won’t let him.
“Don’t cry, baby,” I murmur, kissing his salty tears away.
“I’m sorry.” He squeezes his eyes shut. “I don’t mean to. It’s just... so much is going through my head right now. So many emotions I’m not used to.”
“I can stop if you–”
“No!” He shakes his head. “No, please don’t.”
“Shhh.” I roll my hips, making him moan. “I won’t go anywhere. I got you. You're safe.”
“Safe,” he sighs, letting his body relax into the bed. “I’m safe.”