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Me: Yeah. I don’t think I’ll be going anywhere.
Kai: Good.
Me: good
I just pray that I’m not making a mistake. If either he or Laney breaks my heart, I don’t think I’ll be able to recover. It took a lot for me to get where I am today. If this doesn’t end up how I want it to,needit to, then I’ll be destroyed. I don’t want anyone else. I’d rather be alone forever than not have them as my partners in life.
Chapter 12
Delaney
The rest of the winter break isn’t what I’d hoped it would be. Christmas was good. Mom and I spoiled Benny. Getting to see his face light up and hear his happy squeals when he opened his gifts was the highlight of the day.
It’s hard to believe that sweet boy is going to be a year old in just a few short weeks. Logan is going out of his mind trying to make sure he has the best birthday, and I plan on making sure that happens, too.
We know he won’t remember, but we will. And after all the bullshit he’s had to go through in the first year of his life, the boy deserves to be spoiled.
Since coming back from the trip to the mountains, I’ve spent most of my time with Mom at home. With being so busy with school and life, it’s been nice enjoying that time with her before she goes back to work. It reminds me of the old days, when it was just her and me.
We’ve had sleepovers in my room, with movie marathons and lots of junk food, to the point we had sugar hangovers. We swam, went shopping, and got pampered at the spa. It’s been amazing.
I wish Winter weren’t on vacation with her family, or I’d have invited her along. Mom has pretty much adopted her as her second daughter, and I’m more than happy to share her with my best friend. Lord knows the girl needs a good parental figure in her life.
I still haven’t met her parents, and honestly, I don’t think I want to.
Elijah and Logan have been sneaking into my room at night, so I haven’t slept alone at all in the past week. I loved having a warm body to wake up next to instead of being alone.
Mom made a comment, wondering why we were still sneaking around when she and James both know about what’s going on between his sons and me. All I could tell her was that the guys haven’t had the chance to talk to their dad yet and wanted to wait to be openly affectionate with me. Honestly, I think it’s kind of sweet. They’re happy that their dad is okay with us, something I was so damn worried about. But they also want to be respectful when it comes to my mom.
She doesn’t know it, but Eli and Logan plan on sitting the two of them down. Something about a whole speech they have planned. I didn’t ask, but I did laugh, finding it so damn charming.
On the other hand, I have no idea where I stand with Owen. Any time I’ve seen him, he acts like nothing's happened. He’s smiling, playful, flirting, and unlike before, I don’t know how to take it.
Any time I try to get him alone to talk, he avoids me.
As the days go on and I see him less and less, I’m starting to wonder if this is something he even still wants to pursue.
I like Owen. I care about him a lot. He means something to me. But if dating me, sharing me with three other men, isn’t something he can handle, I’ll have to learn to deal with it. Even though it would hurt, I’d respect it.
But the fact is, I have no clue where we stand because he won’t fucking talk to me. Something I plan on changing the next time I see him. No more avoiding me. No more ignoring my texts. I want answers. If he needs time, I’ll give him time. If he wants more time with me, I'll give him that, too.
What I won’t do is play games. I don’t have time for that.
Even his own brothers have noticed the change in him, and they don’t like it either. Owen swears it’s just stress from the upcoming semester and hockey, but I don’t know if I believe it.
It’s the first day back to school, and I’m excited. Sad that I won’t have any classes with Kai, but delighted we can be together out in the open.
Kai talked to the school board the other day and told them about our relationship. He didn’t tell them we’ve been kind of seeing one another for months now, instead he explained that we met through family over the winter break, hit it off, and now want to see where things go.
Even if it was a lie, it worked. They told Kai we were allowed to have a relationship as long as I wasn’t in any of his classes and things stayed professional on school grounds.
Everything seems to be coming together. Stacy is still locked up, and Logan has full custody. Eli is around more, taking fewer shifts at work, and Kai has been stopping by the house when he can.
To anyone else, I have it all. But to me, I feel like I’m missing something. Someone. Call me selfish, but I want Owen, too.
How can he go from being so adamant that we would end up together, so patient and willing to wait for me to distancing himself when the time came for us to be together?
Ugh. This is all fucked up.
