Page 45 of Hidden Plays
“Nope, not unless you want to let them know you’re the secret boyfriend.” How the hell would we navigate this? I ate a bite of taco, the spice and sweetness of the salsa bursting on my tongue.
“Your housemates are all queer, though.” He bit into his taco and chewed for a moment. “What do you think they’ll say about us?”
“Does it matter? They believe I hate you, so they’ll be surprised. But they won’t tell anyone if that’s what you’reworried about.” I sipped my drink, washing down my food. Eli and Casey would shit when they found out. But they’d leave me alone about Myles for good. “They’ve all been through the coming-out process. They know it’s difficult.”
“But what if the coaches find out? I’ve seen how you guys tease each other. What if someone says something unintentionally?” He set his taco on his plate and wiped his fingers.
I lowered my brows. “They’re not stupid. They’d be careful.” What, did he think my friends were a bunch of inconsiderate morons? “So what if the coaching staff learns the truth? You’re training me, not coaching me.”
“That would mean the entire team…” He swallowed hard. “JJ, I’m not sure I’m ready. I know the team has policies for queer players, but won’t the guys say shit behind my back?”
“Why, because that’s how your friends behave?” Heat flickered across my chest. Maybe I lacked understanding right now, but I didn’t want to hide with him.
“No.” Hanging his head, he tensed his mouth. “Can you give me some time?” He frowned as he focused on me.
“Sure, I can do that.” Fuck, I was being an asshole. Grabbing his hand, I said, “I’m sorry, Holden. I like you a lot, and I don’t want to hide what we have.” I breathed in deeply.
“I know. It’s not a reflection of you. I want to be open with you, no matter where we are. I just need to wrap my head around it.” His gaze searched my face.
“Okay, then take your time, and we’ll figure it out.” I picked up my taco and took a juicy bite. Where would we go after this? Home?
“Thanks, JJ.” He drank some margarita. “I don’t know how my parents will react either. I mean, my brother’s already a problem.”
“And you don’t want to stir the pot by coming out.” I ate another taco. I’d heard similar stories before. But he wasn’t living at home, so his coming out to his family wasn’t such a big deal. “You can piecemeal it.” I sipped some water. “I think if wetold my friends, it’d be easiest.” Gauging his reaction, I said, “They’d be the most understanding.”
With his gaze locked on mine, he nodded. “Yes, I think you’re right. Let me try that first, but not tonight. Okay?” He winced.
“Not tonight.” I squeezed his shoulder. “Relax and let’s enjoy each other’s company for now.” He looked tense, and that wasn’t what I wanted for us on this date.
“I’d like that.” He bit his lower lip and released it. “By the way, I like youa lottoo.”
As a smile played over my lips, warmth cradled my heart. Was I falling for him? Probably. Damn it, it was impossible to keep my feelings in check with him.
After our dinner,we strolled around the shops and had more drinks at various bars. The rest of the evening had been easy with him. I loved his absentminded kisses and touches, always letting me know he was close. As it got late, we ambled toward my SUV. I didn’t want to leave him. But there was always tomorrow.
I stopped at my vehicle, parked in a darker corner of the lot. “I enjoyed our time together.” Maybe next time I’d bring him home to the guys, and we’d be able to steal away into my bedroom.
“Me too.” He pushed on my chest, my back hitting the side of my SUV, cupped my cheeks and pressed a hungry kiss on my mouth, freeing a soft moan.
Wrapping my arms around his waist, I pulled him closer, our dicks touching underneath the fabric of our jeans. Sparks ignited inside me, and my cock stretched to my hip. I couldn’t kiss him like this and not get hard.
He rocked his hips, nibbling on my neck. “You’ve got tinted windows on your SUV.” He pushed me harder against the door, his breath heating my skin. “I want you, JJ.”
Fuck it. “Back seat. Now.” No one would see us, right? It wasn’t a weekend night when the cops would patrol for people fucking in their cars after a night in the clubs. Unlocking the back door, I scanned the area as Holden climbed inside with me following.
“We have to make this quick.” Holden unfastened his jeans and shimmied them past his ass, his cock bobbing on his stomach, the head glistening with precum.
“Jesus.” With a smirk, I closed the door, and my mouth watered. “I’m giving you head this time, okay?”
“Very.” He leaned at an angle, one leg on the seat, his face flushed and eyes dark. “How’s this?”
“Perfect.” Lowering, I fisted the base of his dick and dropped my mouth over him, the salty taste of his precum sliding across my tongue.
His cock pulsed. “Oh, fuck.” His breath came in fast draws, and he clutched my hair.
As I sucked him in, I slid my tongue along his shaft and flicked at his glans, my dick aching in my briefs. He’d return the favor, right? He said he wanted to try it.
His hips jerked, and a deep moan spilled from him. “So good, JJ.”
