Page 66 of Cross My Heart
“Of course…”wait,is that what just happened? When I don’t continue, he leans in closer to my mouth again.
“Good Lord, Lanie. Who the fuck was your last boyfriend?” he says in astonishment.
Mortified is the only word that describes me right now. Completely and totally humiliated. I try to cover my eyes with my arm before he can see the flush I feel creeping across my entire body.
“Oh no, you don’t, Lanie Heart. Look at me.” Lowering my arm, I bring my eyes to his, willing myself not to cry. “Lanie, don’t ever be embarrassed about coming from my touch. I’m fucking ecstatic I got you there so quickly. I swear to God, I almost came in my shorts watching you. It was the sexiest thing I’ve ever experienced. To know I’m the first one to make you orgasm like that? F-u-u-ck, it does wicked, wicked things to me, Lanie. Wicked things I can’t wait to show you, but we have all the time in the world. So, you tell me, Lanie. Do you want me to continue exploring, or do you want to stop?”
Holy shit, I don’t want to stop,do I? Fuck, no, I don’t. I don’t know if I can handle another orgasm like that, but I think I’m willing to try. I almost laugh at the thought. “No, no, I don’t want to stop,” I all but scream.
“Thank fuck!” His voice is gritty and strained, “I want to taste you and I want you to watch me.”
What did he just say?I pick my head up off the boat to stare at him as he moves down my body, kissing every few inches. He hooks his thumbs into the strings of my panties and pulls them down in one fluid motion.Holy fuck, is he really going to…
“Ahhh,” is all that comes out. “Dex, Dex, I don’t think I can, O-h my God.”
He looks up to me and smiles before lowering his mouth once more. With one long lick, he has opened me up to him, his tongue pressing and licking and teasing. I feel a rush of heat flood me, making him groan.
“Fuck, Lanie, you’re so wet.”
I feel like I should be embarrassed, but I don’t have it in me. I don’t have it in me to do anything but feel Dexter’s body, his fingers, his tongue making my body sing. He sucks my clit into his mouth and my body arches off the boat. I’m panting, unable to catch my breath.
“Lanie, now that I know your sweet pussy tastes so fucking good, I’m never going to want to eat anything else ever again.” He dives back in, flicking my clit faster and faster. Adding pressure in all the right places. Just when I don’t think I can take another second of him sucking and flicking my clit with his tongue, I feel a finger enter me. I thought I had come before, but this time, my body truly explodes. Wave after wave hits me, and I have most definitely never felt anything like this before. My body is shaking violently as Dexter continues his ministrations.I feel his finger enter again, this time with a second added, and my body reaches its highest peak. White-hot heat leaves me shuddering for air.
“Dex, holy, holy, Dex-I-I,” I don’t honestly know what I want to say. Stop? Don’t stop? My body is throbbing in all the best places, one pulse away from breaking me in two.
“Holy hell, Lanie, you’re so tight,” he says as his fingers continue to work me.
I’m not a virgin, but I had only ever been with Rob, my boyfriend in high school and partway through college. Nothing with him had ever been like this.
“Baby, I’m not small, I’m afraid I’m going to hurt you. Are you sure you want to do this tonight?”
I look down, his fingers still working me, but I stare past that to his dick that is very clearly standing at attention in his shorts. I’m trying very hard to form a coherent thought right now when all I’m thinking is,dear God, don’t let this stop.
“I-I don’t want to wait, Dex, please.”
Slowly, he eases his fingers out of me, bringing his other hand to cradle my face.
“Lanie, we have plenty of time, I promise. We don’t have to rush anything. Don’t worry about me, this right here,” he gestures between himself and me, “is enough to get me through the next several months, I promise you that.”
I’m contemplating voicing my concerns when he raises my chin. We are eye to eye.
“Tell me what you’re thinking, sweetheart?” He asks sweetly.
On a sigh, I let all my insecurities out. “Did you, did you change your mind? Did I do something wrong and you don’t want me anymore?”
“Christ, no, Lanie. Baby, you were perfect. Everything about you and about tonight has been absolute perfection. I just don’t want to mess that up by possibly hurting you.” A smirk plays against his beautiful face, “I’m not bragging, but I was honest when I said I wasn’t small, I’m terrified I might hurt you and ruin everything we have done so far. Plus, well, honestly? I didn’t think this would happen tonight—I really didn’t expect anything. I didn’t come prepared. I don’t have any condoms.”
Looking up into his eyes, I see his sincerity. I know he can see the relief wash over my features. He pulls me in for a tight embrace. “How could you ever think I wouldn’t want you, Lanie? I have never wanted anything or anyone as much as I want you. That's never going to change for me either, I hope you know that. If you don’t, I need to work harder at proving it to you.”
Taking a moment to collect my thoughts, I finally turn to him. “Dex…I can’t get pregnant. The doctors said the probability of it happening is so low there wasn’t even a point of putting a number to it. I haven’t been with anyone since I was in the hospital and they ran every test imaginable while I was there. Before that, well, there was just one boyfriend.”
“He was a dumb shit,” Dex mumbles before he can sensor himself.
“I trust you, Dex,” I tell him just above a whisper, “I want you.”
He stiffens beside me, realizing what I just told him, and I wish I could take it all back. I try to stand up, but his strong arms pull me back into his lap.
“Don’t go anywhere, Lanie, I’m just thinking. I always want to do the right thing where you’re concerned. Are you sure, one-hundred percent sure this is what you want? That I’m what you want?”
