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“Then sleep. Please wake me up if you need anything, okay?
I nodded, yawned, and then succumbed to sleep.
CHAPTER 24
LUC
After over ten years in the lifestyle, I wasn’t expecting the scene to pack such an emotional punch. Kylie’s lack of experience and innocence, compounded with her absolute trust, brought out a primal protective urge.
I found myself unable to avoid getting attached to her. As I held her, I replayed the scene from the playroom. Had our play session been more intense than most doms would start this soon? Fuck, yes.
We were both immersed in play. Something about Kylie called to me. She was my exact opposite.
I watched the clock, unable to sleep because I worried she would wake up and have a sub drop. The drastic decrease in endorphins after playing could sometimes lead to physical and emotional distress. Would Kylie be able to identify it if it happened? If she did, would she wake me?
She clung to me in her sleep. She turned to me when I rolled on my back, seeking heat. Her hands drifted over my body as she slept. The restraint it took not to roll her over, wake her, and fuck her had me counting backward from 1000.
I had plenty of kinks, but somnophilia wasn’t one of them. Any act with dubious consent had me on edge. That didn’t stop me from wanting to wake her.
Throughout my time with Skylar, traveling and being away never seemed burdensome. We grew used to the long stretches of time spent in different cities, and at the time, I thought it meant we had a healthy balance. But I wasn’t ready to leave Kylie for this stretch that began with a road trip and ended with the All-Star game.
If I were to decide today, I’d skip Houston.
I checked my phone. 2:00 a.m. meant it was 11:00 p.m. in California.
Me: I might skip Houston.
Jack: No shit? What’s up?
Me: Road trip right before…and after.
Jack: Anything to do with the new woman?
I both loved and hated my brother for his directness.
Me: Maybe a bit.
Jack: Interesting. Would she consider traveling?
Me: We aren’t there yet. And there’s a complication with her sister dating Drummond. She doesn’t want her family to know.
Jack: Is there a story there?
Me: Oh, just me being open and honest about my limitations. I thought it would be best to be upfront that I don’t plan to get married again. She said that she’d rather not do family introductions.
Jack: Ouch. You’re in a secret relationship.
Me: Well, she’s the kind of woman you keep. And since I don’t plan to keep any woman long-term, I’m going to need to let her go at some point.
Jack: Never say never.
Jack had been more than vocal about my convictions, and we would never see eye to eye. He thought I needed to be open and upfront about our struggles with fertility and let the woman decide. But people change. She might accept that we couldn’t have kids today, only to regret it in the future. Even in this short time knowing her, I already knew she would be tough to let go, but if I entertained something long-term? I couldn’t let myself hope and then lose again.
Kylie stirred and opened her eyes, blinking from the light on my cell phone.
“Everything okay?”
“Yeah, talking to my brother. West Coast time, he’s still awake.”
