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December 31, 11:59 a.m.
From: [email protected]
Subject: New Year’s Resolutions
Happy New Year.
Last year I made a New Year’s resolution to give up soda. That lasted all of two weeks before I forgot. I took one sip before I remembered and then once I’d slipped it seemed silly to keep going. Do you make resolutions for the new year? I bet if you do, you stick to them, stubborn woman.
This year I’m not making any resolutions because I don’t want to give up anything. Including you. That’s right, sweetheart. Maybe you think you can ignore me, and I’ll forget about you, but I can be just as stubborn when I want something bad enough. And I want you badly.
Finn
January 1, 11:48 a.m.
From: [email protected]
Subject: Bear Grylls
I wrote and deleted about twelve different emails already today. There are so many things I want to say to you, but I’ve never been very good with words. I gave up and was watching Bear Grylls on TV (you’ve got me hooked) and he said something I had to tell you.
He said, “You only get one chance at life and you have to grab it boldly.” It spoke to me and I thought you’d appreciate it too. It made me think of that night we shared some of our goals in life. I haven’t done a single one, hadn’t even thought about them since then. I’m adding another item to my list: you. That’s it. In any capacity or quantity I can have you.
Finn
January 30, 1:21 a.m.
From: [email protected]
Subject: Pickles
Do you like pickles? Odd question, I know, but I was having lunch today and I realized I didn’t know. I don’t mind a few dill slices on a sandwich, but I can’t stand them any other way. Those people who eat the giant pickles in public like it’s an ice cream cone. No fucking thanks. Gross.
Are you one of those people? Now that I think about it, there are probably a whole bunch of things you do or like that would annoy me. Could you tell me those please? Because all I seem to remember are all the really amazing things about you. Like how good your hair smells, and the way you’d leave just enough coffee in the pot for me every day, the way you spoiled my cat and forced me to keep her, and your smile – your smile beats all others.
I’m drunk and probably not going to send this email. The same way I haven’t sent any of my other drunken rants. Or maybe I will. I really would like to know if you like pickles. And what about salami? That’s a hard no for me as well.
Finn
February 6, 3:09 p.m.
From: [email protected]
Subject: Gratitude
I started a gratitude journal. I’m a little embarrassed about it if I’m honest, but in some way, it makes me feel closer to you. Maybe we’re jotting down our lists at the same time or maybe we happen to write the same thing one day. What are you grateful for today? Here’s my list.
Things I’m grateful for
1. Marshmallow
