Page 58 of Come Alive
Kazi turned the vibrator off, and Mateo lowered us back onto him.
“I love you all. You know that, don’t you?”
“We do, baby girl.”
“Yes,mija.”
“Of course,jagiya.”
Content, I allowed myself to relax, if only just for a few more minutes.
***
Showered and back in the bed between Kazi and Mateo, my memories from earlier that day hit me.
“Oh! I forgot to tell you all, Izzy came over earlier with a home ultrasound. She made Emilio get it for me. And it wasn’t on purpose…but we know the genders of the babies. At least we think we do, we might be wrong.”
Kazi rolled over until he was on his side facing me, his eyes alight in amusement as he stared behind me. At Mateo.
“You did what?” Mateo growled into my ear, causing tingles to zap down my neck and a full-body shiver to take hold. “Emilio, that rat sneaky bastard. He did that to punish me. He knew…” Mateo calmed himself down, reaching over me, cupping my belly. It was peaking out now, stretch marks highlighting the imperfections. But with his large hand there, it was mostly covered, and I was able to focus on him instead.
“What did you find out?” James walked in from the bathroom, a pair of boxers slung low on his hips.
The sight caused another flash of neediness to roll through me, but I willed it down.
“A boy and a girl. They must be fraternal twins. Or I guess we could be wrong.” The excitement from before shifted to concern. “What if they don’t like me? What if…” My insecurities flared up again. No matter how far into this pregnancy I got, it did nothing to lessen my unease. My feelings of inadequacies.
“You’re going to fuck up, Yara,” James advised with a shrug.
The pit in my stomach grew.
Mateo stiffened, growling angrily.
“It’s true. We all are. But the important part is that we learn from it. That we do all we can to right those wrongs. And with four of us around? It will hopefully be smoother because we have each other to rely on. Parenting isn’t easy, but itisrewarding.And it’s normal to not always be happy. To not always appreciate the hardships. You just have to remember you are human. And with two newborns we might not get any sleep in the beginning, but we will eventually.” James chuckled, sitting at the end of the bed, gathering my feet in his lap. He began massaging them soothingly, and I groaned my appreciation.
“What about names?” Kazi asked. “Have you thought of that?”
I recognized his assistance in a distraction and internally thanked him for it. The longer I thought about parenthood, the more impossible it felt. But we would do it.
We don’t have a choice. They’re coming. And soon.
My mom’s name came to mind. Herrealname. “Dorothy. For our daughter. Is that alright?”
The men exchanged a look, before all inclining their heads. I wasn’t sure when they had all gotten on the same page, if it was before or after our recent orgy, but it was nice.
Easier.
The other name I was a bit more embarrassed about. “For our son, I have an idea too. If all three of you agree to it.”
Kazi’s hair was in disarray, and I reached forward, swiping it away. He watched me warily, but leaned into my hand, releasing a shuddering breath.
“Min-ho. After Kazi’s late brother.”
Chapter 34
Kazi
Several Months Later
