Page 74 of Just for Fun
”I feel like I should’ve known,” he confesses. “Shouldn’t guys have some sort of radar for this?”
My eyebrows furrow as I try to figure out if he is right or not. He kind of makes sense.
”I will have to look it up online,” I decide. “There has to be some sort of statistical proof one way or another.”
His teeth glow in the semi darkness of my room when he grins from ear to ear.
”You’re so cute,” he says.
“Why? What did I do?”
His shoulder lifts in a lazy shrug. “This is the most unusual after sex conversation that I have ever had. It’s unexpected,” he explains. “I love it.”
His words stir something inside of me. “How many women have you been with?”
He widens his eyes in surprise. “In my life?”
”Well, yeah. What else would I mean?”
If I didn’t know any better, I’d say he’s blushing. He also has a hard time meeting my eyes.
”There have been a few,” he says.
I shouldn’t be surprised by his answer. Besides, I’m the one who asked. But it is a weird feeling to know that I am not asspecial to him as he is to me. I will never have another first like this. Kyle is it.
”You know…” He bops me on the nose playfully. “For future reference, you should not ask the guy you’re sleeping with about how many women he’s had sex with.”
”Hm…” I stare at him, processing everything he just said. “I think that It would be smart to know the other person’s sexual history.” Something dawns on me. “I probably should’ve asked you about this before we did anything.”
He doesn’t seem to like that. “Would it have changed anything?”
I don’t think it would’ve considering my instant attraction to him from the very beginning, but I am not about to admit to it.
”I don’t know,” I shrug. “I supposed that’s not anything either one of us should dwell on now.”
The color of his eyes becomes more intense the more he stares at me. I don’t know how to read what I see in them. He looks… determined. But to do what?
I start to squirm under his scrutiny, suddenly uncomfortable with the air around us. I regret saying anything about his previous conquests. He is obviously not into sharing things like that. I just it was only fair for me to know since he knows everything about my current history.
As I think about all this, jealousy pokes at me from out of nowhere. I have no right to feel this way about him, but I just can’t help it.
”I tend to ask a lot of questions,” I confess. “And I sometimes judge people based on what they tell me…”
The corner of his mouth lifts in the beginning of a smile. “You mentioned that before.”
I drop my face into his chest, trying to hide myself from him.
”I don’t know why I am the way the I am,” I mumble. “I have a great mother, who tried so hard to teach me how not to bejudgmental. And my brother is totally normal,” I make sure to add.
Kyle slides a hand under my hair and starts massaging the tender spot at the base of my skull.
”I do know that you are very punctual.” He places a kiss on my hair. “How did that get started?”
A sigh escapes me. That is something that annoys a lot of people when they think about me. I lost many possible friendships because of it. But it’s just something I was never able to tolerate.
”It started when I was little,” I tell Kyle. “My parents got divorced…” Another sigh. “It was really hard on both me and Owen. But our dad promised that he’d be there for us, no matter what.”
I need a moment to gather my thoughts, wondering what I am even telling him all this.
