Page 107 of My Heart's Doctor
“I didn’t know that. I’m healthy too. The only time I did it without protection was when I conceived Aurora and actually I used a condom, but it broke. I still get regular check-ups and I’m healthy.”
With the greatest possible delicacy, I withdrew from her body and adjusted us so that we were cuddled up, embracing her by the waist to bring her close to me.
“I want to sleep with you tonight,” I affirmed, knowing that I was going to surprise her because that meant sleeping at my house.
“I like that you’re staying,” she said, kissing my chest and making me shiver, but at that moment I realized she hadn’t understood my proposal.
“Dulce, I can’t stay because I have to go back home for Aurora. The woman who stays with her during the day can’t stay overnight.”
“That’s right, I forgot. No problem, another time,” she said naturally, which meant she still didn’t understand my invitation, so I had to be clear.
“I don’t want it to be another time, I want you to sleep in my bed tonight, in my arms. Devon, come home with me,” I said seriously, waiting expectantly for her answer.
“William, I don’t know if that’s best. Aurora…”
“Dulce, you’re my girlfriend. From now on, Aurora will start seeing you as my partner and, if you want, you can stay every night. Let’s live together.”
There it was. I had said it because it was what I wanted most. I wanted her always by my side and sleeping in my bed next to me. But she didn’t seem very happy about it, which worried me, though I was determined to convince her. I saw her quickly sit up on the couch.
“Are you serious?”
“I would never joke about something like this. I want you in my days and in my nights, I want to share everything with you, and for that I need you by my side, in my house and in my bed.”
“William, I’m not sure that’s best,” she said, taking one of her garments and holding it to her chest to cover herself, which worried me more because she seemed to want to put distance between us. “Aurora might…”
“Aurora will be happy,” I interrupted, though I was aware that I had been the first to say it could be harmful for my daughter. Now I was paying the price for my idiocy.
“But if things don’t work out between us, we might…”
“Things will work out between us,” I interrupted her again, “and if we ever decided to separate, I suppose you could still stay in contact with her because I imagine your relationship with her will be for life. What do you say?” I insisted, hoping she would say yes.
“Can I think about it?” she asked hesitantly.
“You can, but tonight you’re sleeping with me. You owe me many sleepless nights, and I need to sleep, but I can only do that if I have you with me,” I confessed, and I wasn’t lying. Since she had left, my nights had been torment.
“Alright, I’ll sleep at your house tonight,” she said, and knowing that I would have her with me that night made me happy. It was a step, but I wanted to walk the whole path with her.
I left the couch and took her hand so she would fall into my arms, and I hugged her tight. That was enough to make me hard as a rock again.
“Now let’s go to bed because I’m going to make love to you again,” I stated, because with Devon I made love in every sense of the word.
We made love again, this time with less urgency. I delighted in her body, kissing and licking every inch of her skin. She also gained confidence, losing some of her shyness as she kissed and caressed my entire body. We experienced another devastating orgasm that made us scream. I couldn’t stop telling her how much I loved her, and euphoria invaded me when I heard her say it back.
When we got out of bed, we showered together and then had lunch by ordering Chinese food for delivery because Devon had just returned from vacation and didn’t have much in the refrigerator. Afterward, she packed some of her things in a bag, and we left for my house. I was happy to have her with me again, and I wanted her by my side for life. I knew that, although anxiety dominated me, with her I had to go slowly. Life was quite ironic with me—I had been forced to marry in a hurry a woman I didn’t love, and with the one I loved, I had to go step by step because she seemed somewhat reluctant to take that step. I smiled just thinking about it. Devon also seemed happy. Her beautiful gray eyes were clear and crystalline and seemed to smile with happiness.
We arrived at my house, I greeted the guard who opened the gate for us, and I parked in the garden in front of the main door. I took her bag out of the car and, with my free hand, took herhand to enter the house. I noticed that she was surprised by this gesture because she looked at me immediately, but she didn’t say anything and continued walking beside me without letting go. I liked that.
Upon entering, I left the bag on the couch and headed straight to Aurora’s bedroom. I noticed the employees were staring at us, but that was predictable because they had never seen me holding hands with anyone, I don’t think even with Cristina. Besides, they knew Devon from before we started dating, and I assumed that for that reason, seeing us together was so dramatic. I greeted everyone and continued walking naturally. When I stopped at her bedroom door, I saw her playing with her dolls while the woman in charge of her care was sitting beside her reading. I looked at Devon and put a finger to my lips to indicate that she shouldn’t speak, and I also made the same gesture to the woman to ask her the same. She left the bedroom and greeted us with a wave as she passed by. I approached my daughter and crouched down beside her.
“Hello, daddy’s princess.”
“Daddyyy,” she exclaimed with a big smile, throwing herself into my arms.
I stood up and held her tight while I kissed her cheeks and she laughed.
“How have you been, little princess?”
“Good. I’m playing with the dolls. This one is calledDivon,” she said, lifting the doll for me to see. Although I already knew, I understood that my daughter adored Devon and included her in her life even when she played. That made me even happier because I knew that affection was reciprocal.
