Page 61 of The Cannon
A long sigh leaves my mouth right before a piece of pizza is offered for a bite. “No. I’m too excited. And nervous,” I say waving the pizza away.
“What do you think?” she asks.
“You’re probably right, I know. But I’m going to leave it in. Just my gut feeling.”
I start copying the text to email.
Bristol moves the plates to the bedside table and repositions herself facing me. “I understand. Do what you want.”
“This is like the worst part. I know where she is but can’t get to her. It’s like being tortured.” That’s no exaggeration.
“But it’s going to work out. You’re past the worst of it. You found each other.” She says it with so much conviction I can’t help but feel encouraged.
“I still can’t believe it.”
“Those were some mighty odds. But it seems like your destiny.”
That comment lightens me. It’s hopeful. I almost respond, ‘I love you for saying that’, but I don’t. Not because it’s not true, but because when I say it it won’t be in response to some random thing she said. It’ll be because I can’t hold it in any longer.
I feel her hand on mine. “Do you think we should postpone our trip to Blackberry Farm this month?”
“Let’s keep it for now, but it’s a possibility. Thanks for being understanding, babe.”
She comes off her elbow and puts an arm over my waist and looks into my eyes. “Spoon me,” she says turning her back and curling against me.
We fit together like peas in a pod. I breathe in her heavenly scent and nestle against her. She’s my home.
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“Sawyer,you’re out of control! You can’t buy everything you see. Come on, let’s take a five min break. Let’s sit down and regroup.”
I know Bristol is thinking straight, but it’s hard controlling my impulses when it comes to my new family.
“I know. But can you imagine how exciting it would be to a little girl to get a roomful of new furniture? A princess bed?”
Her eyes soften as she takes my hand.
“Babe. Think. Your sister doesn’t even know about you yet. She won’t for another week or two. What are you going to do with all this stuff?”
“I’ll just have the store hold it until delivery! Then when we speak I can put things in motion,” I say tapping my temple for emphasis.
“But you need to consider, just consider, the chance Anne doesn’t want it all. It may be too overwhelming to her while she’s healing. Too much of a change for her child.”
I feel my shoulders sag.
“Shit. Really?”
“It’s just one possibility. I understand your enthusiasm. It’s a beautiful thing. But in my opinion, you’d be better served to wait till you speak to her and hear her take on the subject. Maybe she’ll be wildly excited. Probably will be. But I think you should let her be part of the decision.”
I just look at her. Beautiful and smart.
“Okay. I see your point,” I say standing up. “I won’t buy the furniture. Yet. But let’s look for a few things I can take home with me to send as soon as we talk. You know, small gifts for them both.”
Bristol stands and threads her fingers in mine. “Great idea. The Disney Store is a few shops away. You’re going to find all kinds of things there.”
“What about for Anne? I don’t know her style or size.”
“How about a piece of jewelry? Maybe a necklace or bracelet?
