Page 71 of One Moment Please
Josh’s brows furrow. “Were you snooping through my room while I was asleep?”
“No,” I state defensively, my jaw dropped in offense. “I was grabbing a T-shirt out of your closet.”
He glances down at the Colorado Rockies shirt I found folded on one of the shelves. “Was your own closet too much of an arduous journey for you?”
“Yes,” I reply and tip my chin up. “Plus, grabbing one of your shirts meant I could snoop and figure out what a true pervert you are for keeping my clothes hanging up in there all this time I’ve been living with you. God, what do you do with them? Imagine me inside them and jerk off?”
His brows lift as he refuses to smile. “I usually imagine them on my floor and me buried inside you when I jerk off.”
My cheeks flush at his candid reply, and I pull my lip into my mouth and chew it nervously.
He holds my gaze and props a hand under his head. “What do you imagine when you use that little vibrator you mentioned last night?”
“I’m not telling you that!” I gasp and look away, unable to fight the smile spreading across my face. “Obviously loads of guys way hotter and a lot less freaky than you.”
“Obviously,” he repeats.
I heave a sigh and turn to gaze at the magnificent creature before me. Why does this have to feel so good with him? If it didn’t, it would be a lot easier to say this would never happen again and go on our merry way.
“What are we going to do about us, Josh?” I ask, letting out a groan as I stare down at him. “There’s clearly an attraction here, and it’s making us both miserable.”
“I’m not miserable right now,” he replies, his voice low and sexy and causing a flurry of butterflies to erupt in my belly.
“You’re not miserable because we just had sex last night.” Obviously.
Josh shoots me a lazy half smirk. Maybe a quarter smirk. “I recall.”
I slide my lip between my teeth and work up the courage to hit him with the idea that I’ve been chewing on all morning while he slept. “What would you say if I told you we should keep having sex?”
Josh frowns as he turns onto his side to mirror my pose. “And what else?”
“Nothing else,” I reply quickly, already feeling him want to pull away. “It’d be just sex.”
He narrows his eyes. “You’d seriously be okay with that?”
“Um, yeah, cuz the sex is really good from what I can tell so far,” I chirp, trying to lighten the mood.
He licks his lips and watches me cautiously. “But what if…you decided you wanted something more?”
“Doyouwant something more?” I volley back at him.
“I’m not really capable of more, Lynsey.” His lips thin as he stares at the space between us. “After Baltimore and just…everything I went through…this is basically all I’ll ever be.”
I wait, curious if he’s giving away any clues as to what could’ve happened there.
My voice is soft when I ask, “Are you sure you don’t want to talk about Baltimore?”
He shakes his head and looks up at me, a tightness to his jaw that reminds me how great he is at putting up walls. “The truth is, I don’t have it in me to give any woman more. I’ll admit when you and I first met, I wanted to see you again. But not necessarily to have a relationship with you. Just to…”
“Fuck me.” I finish his sentence, ignoring the hurt that stirs in my gut over that blunt admission.
He blinks slowly. “I sound like a dick when you put it like that.”
“Well, your nickname is Dr. Dick for a reason,” I reply with a smile that he does not return. “Look Josh, it’s fine. If you’re a dick, then so am I because sex is all I’m interested in too.” I lean in and pin him with a serious look that I hope he believes. “I have plans for my future and opening my own clinic and starting a relationship now when I already have a baby to think about would seriously screw up all of those plans.”
Josh stares at me, a glimmer of hope in his eyes that wasn’t there before. “Do you really mean that?”
“Yes,” I reply with a playful shove. “And I asked Dr. Lizzy all of those sex questions because these pregnancy hormones are no joke. I’m horny, and I’m emotional and thinking about sex constantly. My vibrator is waterproof, but I don’t think it’s built for this much use.”
