Page 42 of Unraveling Rain
Chapter 11
Rain
The weekend flew by.
Xander and I ended up spending the night at the campsite, eating s’mores and stargazing whenever we came up for air. I’ve never kissed someone so much. It felt too good—too right—and I’m scared to think about falling for him. It’s just not something I can put my heart through.
His life is fast and full—work trips, brandsponsorships, galas.
Mine is here, in Azalea Creek, where nothing ever really happens.
What if I fall for him, but he forgets about me once he’s back in Raleigh?
What if we both fall madly in love, and I have to move away from my family? I don’t think I’ll ever be able to.
What if I uproot my life for him and he ends up hurting me?
There are too many what-ifs, and our time together is short. I just need to focus on enjoying the moment and worry about the future later.
I’ve been ignoring everyone’s texts. I’m not ready to tell them about Xander.
It’s still very new. I’m not even sure I know what’s going on between us.
All I know is, when I’m with him, I feel peace. No nightmares, no dark thoughts. Just peace.
Maybe it’s because he doesn’t know my past.
Or maybe he’s just different.
Only time will tell.
Even though I’m not ready to tell my family, I still feel the need to speak with someone.
Without thinking much about it, I fire off a text to my sister.
Rain: Hey Ruru. I have a question for you.
Ruin: Okay…
Rain: Do you have a therapist you can recommend?
Ruin: Sure, you can see Savannah here at Serene Lookout.
Rain: Hmmm, I don’t think I want something so close to home.
Ruin: You can have online sessions if you don’t want to come in.
Is that a thing? I guess that would work.
Rain: Sounds good, I’ll call to set up an appointment.
Ruin: Proud of you, sis.
Ruin: By the way, I’m glad to know you’re safe and sound. I’m sure you’ve seen the familychat blowing up.
Rain: LOL yes. I haven’t read the messages though. Talk soon. Love you!
Ruin: Love you too!
