Page 52 of Nightmare For Hire
“Or what?” I wave to the security cam in the corner. “You’ll be recorded, whatever you do. So try something, I dare you.” Then everyone can see how much of an asshole he is. I glance over at Mick with his pretty eyes and I realize I feel nothing for him anymore. This merman has constantly tried to tear me down andcut me with his words, but it doesn't have the same effect on me. He doesn't have any power over me. Whatever bond we had previously is completely severed.
Mick gives me a sour face. “Spoilsport. Don’t you know—”
“Oh! I should thank you. Because you hired Nox, I found myrealsoul mate, and it’s not you, no matter if you still feel sparks when you touch me. I haven’t since you started using your haze, or whatever you call it.”
“That little fucker told you about that?”
“Yes, and he treats me with respect. Not like a sex toy you just use and use. You knew about my past and yet—”
“And now I remember why I used my haze. You like talking so fucking much.”
“Leave me alone, Mick or… or…”
“Or what? You’ll cry to your therapist? You’re pathetic. I don’t need you. I broke up with you to make you realize youneedme. But I guess you’ll just have to suffer my rejection.” Mick turns on his heel and leaves me to stare after his retreating form. My stomach twists because I don’t think this is the end of him.
Mick broke up with me to toy with me. How heartless can he be, even if it was a blessing in disguise?
One thing I know is that Nox truly is my fated mate. There’s no doubt. And I need to tell him everything. Today. No more waiting. No more finding the courage to do it. Time to rip off the bandaid.
Every step home is like walking through concrete and as soon as I reach my door, I damn near collapse in the doorway. Despite telling Maddox everything, the thought of sharing with Nox makes my heart pound even harder. I get myself to my bed and flop down to calm myself.
Nox makes it so easy to love him and I have to believe he loves me back. His actions tell me he does.
After a bit of deep breathing, I open the Monster Match app and stare at Nox’s profile for a few minutes longer than I should before sending him a poke. He immediately sends me back a hug, which makes me smile. But what I have to tell him might make him run and hide. I don’t think so, but no one can ever be sure about anything. I probably should have given him my number at some point, but the idea of giving my number to anyone scared me. Who fucking dates someone for a couple of months without giving their number? Me, that’s who. But Nox never questioned it, just let me be.
My thumb hovers over the message icon. Sweat beads on my forehead. My past shouldn’t affect me this much. Itcan’tcontinue to hurt me. I won’t let it.
“He deserves to know,” I whisper to myself and press the message icon with a shaky hand.
CyCy_123:I’ve been putting off telling you about my past, but I think you have the right to know why I had to walk away for a little bit. I’ll start by saying I DO trust you.
I knew I trusted him, even though I left to clear my head.
Nox_Nightmare:Want me to come over or is it easier if we communicate like this?
God, I love that even like this, Nox is trying to take care of me. It would probably be easier to communicate like this.
CyCy_123:Like this, please. If I change my mind, I’ll let you know. But first, are you in the headspace that you’re okay reading about my trauma?
It’s probably such a funny question to ask a Nightmare, considering he more than likely sees everyone’s trauma nightly, but I still want to make sure. My fingers tremble while I wait for his answer.
Nox_Nightmare:I’m all ears, or eyes. Or, however, this works. Say the word and I’m there.
CyCy_123:Are you watching me right now?
Nox_Nightmare:I recalled all of my shadows when you requested me to.
CyCy_123:Thank you.
I take a long, deep breath and start typing out everything I want to say. It shouldn’t be so hard. I told Maddox everything. I’ve been talking to Dr. Graine since the moment I was put into therapy after being saved, and I want to say I have a handle on things for the most part. Other than meeting Devon working at the hospital, then Norris through her, Dr. Graine is the one other person who’s stood by me and helped me become the man I am today. And now my support system is bigger than ever.
CyCy_123:This is harder than I thought it’d be. I won’t go into too much detail unless you request me to or need an explanation.
I take a deep breath.
Nox_Nightmare:Thank you for sharing however much of yourself you’re willing to. I’ll research what I need to.
How the hell can someone that claims they don’t understand humans be the sweetest person I’ve ever met? It takes everything in me to proceed. I don’t want him to think less of me after knowing.
