Page 73 of Right Hand Of The Reaper
Roux
ThemomentMagnuswalkedout of that room I knew. There was a definite post-coital glow about the three of them and the tension that had been there earlier had gone. I hadn’t expected to be jealous, but it hit me like a wrecking ball, knocking me backwards and breaking something within me. They’d fixed whatever it was and yes, I was happy for them, but I hadn’t realised how much seeing the three of them together was going to hurt.
I also thought the twins would have put up more of a fight. Maybe this thing between the three of them was just too powerful to resist. Was it inevitable?
“They look happy,” Atticus mused as he packed some gear into a bag. Fuck knows where Thane got all this shit, but I was grateful. There were all the trademark tools for breaking and entering, ropes, weapons, and other tactical gear. Yes, we were all powerful creatures with supernatural abilities, but even we weren’t capable of everything. Better to be prepared than caught with your pants down.
“Yes,” I replied, answering out of politeness rather than anything else. Urgh, it hurt to look at them. The three of them were grinning. Even Rayne who was miserable most of the time.
“Roux,” Atticus said softly, cupping my shoulders and turning me to face him. “Talk to me.”
I heaved a deep sigh, unsure where to start with putting my feelings into words. “I want it to be me to make them smile like that. I want to be a part of them too.”
I felt guilty saying that, and I worried that Atticus might not think he was enough for me but I knew he was open to more. With more than just me too.
“Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, go after what you deserve.” He knocked my chin with his knuckle. “Go talk to them. Tell them how you feel. They aren’t mind-readers, Roux, and it’s unfair to them if you don’t use words to express your feelings.”
“Okay, but only if you go and talk to Thane.”
“What?”
“There’s something between you two, and I think you need to figure out if it’s normal attraction or something to do with your soul bond.”
He looked away from me, hiding his eyes that were usually so full of emotion. “I don’t know what it is. It’s like there’s this draw to him, something pulling me towards him and I don’t know if it’s the bond or something else.”
“Would it be so bad if it was something else?”
“No,” he said slowly, “it’s just I’ve never…”
“Been attracted to a man before.” I got it. I did. Must be scary to have to navigate through something you thought you were sure of, only to come out questioning everything you knew about yourself.
“Perhaps you should talk to Magnus?” I offered and Atticus frowned. “Until the twins, he’d never looked at a man before.”
“Really? He seems so comfortable with them.”
“He is now.” I looked to where the twins stood with Magnus, noting the subtle touches between the three of them. They did look comfortable with each other and I was happy for them. “But I imagine it was a bit of a shock to his system to find himself with not one man, but two.”
I could see the cogs turning behind his eyes as he looked between me and the other three men.
“I might speak to him, then. And I’ll have a conversation with Thane.”
“Good,” I said with a nod. “I want you to be happy, and if that includes other people, then that’s okay.”
He wrapped his hand around my neck and pulled me towards him, brushing a soft kiss against my lips. “How did I get so lucky with you?”
“I don’t know, but I’m just as lucky,” I replied with a grin before kissing him again. It soon turned from chaste to devastating as he devoured my mouth with his tongue and licking every inch he could find. I moaned deep into his mouth when he sucked on my tongue, sending lust burning through my veins. When he pulled back, I was breathless, just as he was. Impressive considering neither of us needed to breathe anymore.
“Wow,” a husky voice said from behind us.
I looked and found Magnus starting at me, his eyes a smouldering, deep ruby red and his lips wet, as if he’d just licked them.
The twins looked at me like they wanted to devour me, like I was the only thing that was going to save them from starvation.
My nails bit into the flesh of my palms as I held back the need to touch them. Gods, the tension in here was so thick it felt like I could choke on it.
“Roux. I need you to see this,” Thane said as he strode into the room, snapping the tension immediately. Poor thing, he was often completely oblivious to what was happening right under his nose.
“See what?” I asked a little breathlessly.
