Page 30 of Sparks of Insanity
I’D CLEARLY LOST MY fucking mind, hadn’t I? Did I seriously just kidnap a woman? The very same woman who I’d been accused of acting inappropriately with? The very same woman I lost my job over?
Oh, the very same woman whose entire family seemed to be complete fucking psychos, who’d probably disembowel me when they found me? I was a dead man. A dead man walking. Fuck me, I’d actually wondered if my life could get any worse, and then I literally went out there and made it worse.
“Ethan?” Ember’s voice was timid, and so out of character for her, that I felt like a monster for making her sound that way. I don’t know what the hell I’d been doing, but now there was no going back, was there? The car keys were lost, probably forever, so the car was useless to us.
We were out in the middle of nowhere, and I was in a borrowed house, as in, I wasn’t actually supposed to be here at all. The keys were backup copies my cousin had left with me, when they locked up to go on a cruise. They’d be back in five or six weeks, and by then, I’d be the subject of a nationwide manhunt, searching for the evil teacher who’d kidnapped his former student, after ‘grooming her for sex’.
“I’ve lost my mind,” I whispered, realising rock bottom was never really the bottom, because now look… a whole new depth below where I’d been.
“I’m sorry,” I blurted, finally looking at Ember, my captive, because I’d fucking kidnapped her.
“Ethan, why are we here?” She asked, pulling the blanket tighter around her. She wasn’t kidding about it being cold in here, and now that I’d stopped moving around, I was feeling it too. I should have grabbed a second blanket from the airing cupboard for myself.
“I messed up, Em. I didn’t know what the fuck to do, and suddenly I figured if I’d lost everything else, at least I could keep you, but that’s insane. I kidnapped you, for fuck’s sake. I really am the monster they made me out to be!” I leaned my head back on the chair and closed my eyes.
Somehow I had to fix this, but I had no idea how. Even if we were able to get the car keys back, and head back to town right now, it was late enough that her family would know she was missing, and they’d be looking for her, and trackers or not, they’d start with me. My house.
I heard Em moving, but I didn’t open my eyes, because she couldn’t leave exactly, and even if she could, that was her right, wasn’t it?
My eyes flew open when she climbed into my lap, draping the blanket around me too. I could feel heat radiating from her, and the warm blanket and, almost unbidden, my arms slid around her back, holding her close to me.
“We’ll figure it out,” she whispered, as she tucked her face into my neck and relaxed against me. Her weight in my lap, her breaths against my neck, her breasts pressed against my chest, it was all just another reminder of how she might be young, but she was still all woman, and I fucking wanted her. Like the asshole I was, I wanted her.
My arms tightened around her, and I felt my cock hardening in my pants. I’d wanted her for so long, even though I’d known it was wrong, and now she was right here, in my lap, and we were alone, in a house with a bed we could use.
She said I’d given her her first orgasm, and right now all I wanted to do was give her a second one. Maybe a third. Then I wanted to bury my cock deep inside her, and drive away all of the bad things with pleasure, for both of us. To rewrite our future together, but that was bullshit, wasn’t it? There was no future for us, definitely no future for me.
I wondered if I had even days left before her family found me, and brutally murdered me for my actions. They should. They absolutely fucking should.
“I’m a monster,” I whispered, realising that there was no other word for me. A teacher who’d just kidnapped a student of his, and was getting horny as fuck with her in my arms.
“Ethan?”
I made a hmm noise in response, and Ember giggled. What could possibly be funny right now?
“Something’s digging into me.” Yeah, baby, that’d be my fucking dick, and it wanted to do more than just dig in.
“Sorry. Maybe you shouldn’t be in my lap, Em. This isn’t-”
“Don’t you dare say ‘appropriate’! Why wouldn’t anything be appropriate? You’re no longer my teacher, and we’re both adults. Why can’t this just be something good for us?”
I teased my fingers into her hair, and gently pulled her head back, and she stared eagerly at my lips, clearly expecting a kiss.
I knew I was disappointing her, but that inner asshole I’d recently discovered was out to play again. Shocking her, scaring her, maybe that was the only way to show her how wrong this all was.
“Something good? Something good like what? You want me to strip you and fuck you? Is that what the ‘something good’ would be? My hard cock driving into your tight pussy and probably hurting you, because I have a feeling you’re a virgin? It’d tear you and you’d bleed. Is that what you want? You want to be naked and held down beneath me, while I use your body for my pleasure? Is that the ‘something good’ you mean? You act like this is some fantasy, some romantic fantasy, but sex isn’t like that. It’s raw, it’s animal, it’s aggression and passion, it’s about friction and repetition, it’s about ramming a cock in a hole until it spurts cum. You want that? You’re ready for that?”
18
Ember
He was like adifferent person, but hadn’t I already noticed that? Hadn’t I noted how he barely even looked the same, and why should he, when I’d caused him to lose everything?
Surely any changes to his attitude and behaviour were my fault, because I’d ruined his life for him. He was a respected teacher, recommended to my parents as the best at what he does; guiding troubled teens through their studies, so they can achieve their goals. How many troubled teens had I screwed by messing up his career for him?
I hadn’t even meant that to happen. All I’d wanted was for him to acknowledge the feelings I knew he harboured for me, just as I did for him.
He was the first and only man who’d been welcome to touch me, whose touch hadn’t made me recoil, or feel dirty. The only man whose touch I actually craved.
