Page 35 of Sparks of Insanity
Ethan averted his eyes as I adjusted my position on the floor, to move a little closer to him. He waved a finger weakly in my direction.
“Your uh… you need to fix your blanket.”
I glanced down and saw that the blanket had parted, revealing a large swath of my naked flesh to his gaze, even though my breasts were still mostly covered.
“You… you weren’t the first to… to touch them, you know, but even though I freaked out a bit, your touch wasn’t unpleasant.”
He chanced a glance at me, and relaxed a tiny bit when he saw that I’d adjusted the cover again, hiding my nudity from him.
“It was more than unpleasant, Em. I’m the predator your dads were so worried about. My god, they were smart enough, and good enough dads, that they saw through me, even when I didn’t see this side of myself, they knew. You’re lucky to have such great parents, you really are. If only they’d known you were coming to me tonight, they could have protected you from me tonight too.”
“Will you stop doing that?! So you lost control, Ethan. It’s not like you were deliberately-”
He lurched up from the floor, pacing across the room, and stopping by the window, staring blindly at the closed curtains.
“I was, Em. I was deliberately trying to push you, to scare you. To drive you so far out of your comfort zone, that you’d be terrified of me. I could pretend that it was all just to make you scared enough that you wouldn’t risk being anywhere near me, but that’d be a lie. See, I just really fucking wanted to touch you, and fuck you, and that means that maybe this always should have happened to me.”
Ethan
WE WERE GOING ROUND in circles, but the important point was this, I shouldn’t have brought her here, and trapped her with me. I didn’t know how to fix that now, not in the middle of thenight, not when we had no way to use the car we’d come in. Not when I had no idea how to get anywhere else from here.
I’d known the way here because I’d been several times before, but I’d always come straight here, down the back roads to avoid the detour through the village nearby. And even knowing there was a village nearby didn’t help me, because I had no fucking idea how far it was, or what businesses were there, so right now there was nothing I could do to fix this situation.
“Ethan?” Em’s hand on my arm made me jump, and I immediately tried to get away from her, before that psycho version of me took over again. I was starting to wonder if there was a different person inside me, a dark side of me, and she kept waking him up, drawing him out.
“Don’t touch me,” I hissed at her, groaning as her face dropped. I just kept hurting her, didn’t I?
Ember glared at me for a long moment, and then she did something I never fucking expected in a million years. She loosened the blanket she’d wrapped around her, and hesitated for a moment before she pushed it from her shoulders, letting it pool on the floor as she bared her pale skin, and those sweet breasts to my gaze again.
“What are you doing?” I practically yelled, holding my hands up as she approached me again. She caught my wrists and stepped closer again, and like a fool, like a weak pathetic fool, I let her press my hands against the soft skin of those pert tits. She sighed softly as my fingers curled gently around them, while I started shaking my head.
“Stop… Em, this isn’t safe, don’t you get it? I’m fucked up, like a house already on fire, and you’re just pouring petrol right over it. Do you understand? I have no control over myself, and you’re the one who’ll get hurt.”
My fingers were already kneading that soft flesh, my thumbs grazing over her nipples as I moved closer, without conscious thought, and Ember moaned softly.
“That feels so good.”
If she hadn’t trembled as I moved closer to her, I really think I’d have taken what she was offering, but suddenly I was backing up again, despite the frown on her face.
“Ethan… don’t stop,” she whispered, reaching for me once more.
“This isn’t what you want, but you’re trying to convince yourself of it for some insane reason. Don’t throw yourself in the monster’s lair, just because you think that’s the only way to protect yourself. As soon as it’s light, I’ll find those keys and take you back home, and then… I…”
My words trailed off, because what the fuck was my plan after that? Give back the woman I kidnapped and nearly raped, and then what? Move to a new town where I can pretend I’m a normal guy again? I really think that ship has sailed, and fucking sank in the ocean on the way.
“Ethan, please. I want this. I want you.” Ember sure was insistent, wasn’t she? I kept giving her outs, and she kept pushing her luck.
I swallowed hard, backing right up to the wall.
“I’ll hurt you, and I really fucking don’t want to do that.”
“It’s okay,” she soothed, stepping close enough to press those taut nipples against my chest, and shivering at the sensation. She wasn’t the only one who felt it, or wanted more, just from that simple touch. Pert nipples scraping against my bare skin would be my undoing.
“I want you to be my first. I always wanted it to be someone I could like and trust, but you’re more than those things. You’re the only one I know I’m safe with.” Safe? Did she listen to a single fucking word I said?
Lifting her chin, she backed up again, and shed the rest of her clothes in rapid moves, baring her entire naked body to me, and like the animal I’d become, I knew my ability to protest or hold back had been shed along with them. I followed her as she backed up to the bed, and scooted back onto it. Laid before me, like a sweet temptation, her skin pinking slightly, she beckoned to me.
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