Page 45 of Has-Been
“What?” I tried to sit up as Has moved. Had he changed his mind? Don’t do this to me now, please don’t do this to me now.
“The fucking condom is in my room. Dammit.” He started to move off the bed, and I caught his hand.
“Forget it. I want you now.”
“Babe, you don’t know what you’re saying.”
“Because I’m a dumb virgin who doesn’t understand anything about sex?”
Has frowned deeply, stroking my cheek.
“No, babe. It’s just very easy to make bad decisions when you’re so fucking horny. I’ll go get one from my room, and I’ll be right back, it’s okay.”
If he left, this wouldn’t happen. I could already see it. Someone would interrupt us again, or he’d have second thoughts. He’d realise he doesn’t want me, doesn’t want to lose everything for me. Selfishly, I wanted him beforehecould make a better decision.
“I want you inside me without one, Has. I want to feel you inside me, not a condom.”
He groaned, pulling me close for a kiss.
“You’re gonna be the death of me, babe, but I can’t deny you a single fucking thing. Not anymore. You own me now.”
He lowered me back down onto the bed, and his fingers trailed between my legs, stroking and teasing, as I felt that warmth and urgency starting to build again.
“Remember to tell me if you need me to stop, babe. I promise I will. I’ll never hurt you.”
Has kissed me, and then trailed his lips down my neck, making me shiver with each tantalising touch of his mouth against my skin.
“You’re fucking perfection, babe. How the hell is this happening right now? How the hell are you lowering yourself to be with me?”
I opened my mouth to argue, and then let out a gasp instead. I could feel him pressing against me down there, and I knew immediately that it wouldn’t fit. How the hell could it? My heart thudded rapidly in my chest and I froze, as a tingle of fear ran down my spine like icy cold fingers.
“I’m scared.”
Has lifted his eyes, that pressure easing off again, taking away the imminent threat that I both wanted and feared in that moment. Why couldn’t this be as easy for women as it was for men? Why did it have to hurt for us?
“Babe, if you’re not ready, you don’t have to do this. There’s plenty we can do instead. All of it good, I swear.”
I shook my head, knowing I didn’t want to lose this moment either.
“I want it to be now. Just… can you do it fast?”
Has’ lips twitched a little. “You want me to rush the most important moment of your sexual awakening, babe? Trust me, that’s not the way you want to remember it. You do trust me, right? Trust that I’ll make this perfect?”
I nodded, swallowing hard.
“I do.”
Suddenly he was pushing against me again, and this time his eyes stayed on mine, soft and sweet, showing nothing but love and consideration.
“Babe…” He moved up to kiss me again, teasing me into a slow gentle kiss that I felt everywhere, tingling through me like a physical touch in all the best places.
His fingers started teasing at my nipples again, making me squirm, as sensation shot from them down to where he was still pressing against that damn barrier of mine. He reached down, and teased at my clit, and then I was starting to move with each ripple of pleasure, and pushing closer to him.
I felt it when he finally broke through and started to slide inside me, no longer hampered by that little obstacle that I’d wanted gone for so long. It was only a brief pinch of discomfort, and then the glorious sensation of being stretched by his big thick cock, as he made me a woman at last.
Twenty-Nine
Thesecondwewalkedback into her room, without the threat of cameras watching and perving over us, I knew one thing. I wasn’t going to make her wait any longer. I wasn’t going to make either of us wait. It had been too fucking long coming, and now it was time to come together.
