Page 58 of Stolen Empire
I cross to the bed and sit down, trying to calm my racing heart.
A week ago, I hated him.
I hated everything about this situation, the way he controlled me, the way he used me.
But now, after that night, after he took me apart and put me back together, I can't stop thinking about him and wanting him.
And the worst part is, he knows it.
I lie back on the bed and stare at the ceiling, replaying his words in my mind.
The way he looked at me, the way his voice sounded when he offered to spank me.
The way my body responded, aching and desperate for him to touch me.
I'm in too deep.
I know I am.
This was supposed to be a job, a way to earn my freedom, but it's turned into something else, and I don't know how to pull myself out of it.
I promised to fuck him then do the job, but I'm daydreaming about him, waking up with my core so tight I might explode after sex dreams where he pins me to the wall in a choke hold and fucks me.
It's out of control.
I close my eyes and try to focus on the plan.
Tomorrow night, I'll go to the card room.
I'll play the role, lose a few hands, and let the Radich scouts approach me.
I'll do exactly what Dimitri told me to do, and I'll get him the information he needs.
And when it's all over, I'll walk away.
But even as I think it, I know it's a lie.
I'm not walking away when every part of me is drawn to him, craving the way he makes me feel.
I'm trapped, and the worst part is, I'm not sure I want to escape.
I hear his footsteps in the hall and I hold my breath.
He stops outside my door, and I wait for him to knock, to open it, to come inside and finish what he started.
But he doesn't.
After a moment, the footsteps fade, and I'm left alone with my disgustingly perverted thoughts.
I roll onto my side, pulling the blanket over me to try to squash the nerves jolting through me, but all I can think about is the way he looked at me, the way his voice sounded when he offered to punish me.
And I know, with a certainty that terrifies me, that next time he offers, I won't run.
Next time, I'll say yes.
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