Page 130 of The Rules Of Attraction
She spoiled me too by taking me to the spa and shopping.
Dare I say it.
This was starting to feel real. Like a real relationship.
I guess though that it was.
It felt real to me and …I was completely into him.
How could I not be?
“He’s good to me.”
She smiled a soft smile but then cast her eyes down ant the vinyl on the floor. I got the impression that she had something more to say.
“What?” I smiled.
“Nothing, it’s just I wanted to tell you something, but sometimes it’s not always the best time.”
“It’s always a good time. Are you kidding? You’ve been there for me whenever I needed you. Always.” I pointed out.
She brought her hands together and smiled. “I wanted you to know that you had me. I knew how important Tom and Becca were to you, and that when you didn’t have them it must have been like you lost everyone.”
“I didn’t though. I always had you.” I nodded. “Tell me, what is it?”
She pressed her lips together and gave me a little smile. “Cody and I are thinking of starting a family.”
I gasped, and gasped again when I looked at the cocktail. “Eilesh we just had cocktails.”
“I know. It’s fine. I’m not pregnant. I’m just saying we may be soon.” She laughed.
I was so happy to hear that. “Oh my goodness. This is the best.” I threw my arms around her and hugged her. “Why wouldn’t you tell me this?”
She looked hesitant to respond and I immediately guessed why.
“It just felt like the wrong time because of all that happened with Tom and Becca with the whole pregnancy thing. I didn’t want to add to your worries.”
That was what I thought. I shook my head. “I’m over it. I really am.”
“Are you?”
“Yes. It was raw when I first found out but I don’t feel like that anymore. It just feels like a thing that happened to me, something I want to sweep under the rug.” It felt good to be strong, to feel strong inside.
“Did you ever hear from Becca?”
“No.” I never expected to and I probably wouldn’t ever again.
I changed my number after that last time that Tom called. I knew that it meant severing any possibility of either of them contacting me.
They knew where I’d lived back when I was at my old horrible apartment, but that was it. And, it was all they needed to know.
“Do you ever think about her? Or wonder if she fight feel bad about what happened?”
“Knowing Becca she’ll be more upset that Tom wanted to get me back. She won’t feel bad for anything.”
That was classic Becca. As for thinking about her, I couldn’t say that I didn’t. I didn’t have a single childhood memory that didn’t include her. We had some good times when we were little, the best at summer camp and at school.
She changed though at some point and I failed to see it. When I thought back now I think the change came when we were about sixteen and we both liked the captain of the high school football team.
