Page 144 of The Rules Of Attraction
“Am I being stupid, Eilesh?” I wanted to see what she thought. “I haven’t known Alex that long. Is it stupid to pass up such a chance? It just feels like I should find another way if I can.”
“Summer, I’ve known you for a very long time and the last thing I think you are is stupid. Feelings aren’t stupid, love isn’t stupid.”
“Love.” I whispered, savoring the way the word itself seeped into my heart.
“Yes, love. You love Alex.”
“I do love Alex.” It felt so good to say. “Long distance was a problem with Tom.”
“No sweetie,” Eilesh chuckled. “That was never a problem. It was used as an excuse. Any man who loves you will love you weather your right next to him or a million miles away. Which is why you’re filing away this job just in case you think you may want it and you see a way that you can make both work.”
“Thank you.” I nodded feeling grateful and relieved. I trusted her, and her opinion.
It meant a lot that she reasoned it out in that way because right now I couldn’t see much past Alex.
By the time that I got home my mind felt more at ease.
Alex had gotten all these brochures for the Bahamas and bought a bedside lamp for me, for my side of the bed.
The man was bursting with excitement as if I was something wonderful that had happened to him.
“Do you like the lamp? I swear I won’t complain about you reading before bed, and with this you can have the light on for as long as you want.” He bubbled, eyes gleaming and his handsome face beaming at me.
“I love it.” I hugged him.
We stood in his room.
Ourroom.
I rested my head on his chest and felt completely taken with the way that he held me and the soft kisses he placed on my forehead.
“Let me know when you’d like to bring your stuff in.”
“Anytime you want, Alex. I just want to be with you.”
That was the answer to everything.
