Page 186 of Play of Love
Chapter 11
Evie
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Iwould never get over the pain I felt at the thought of losing Lucy. But I thought I could find the strength to respect her wishes and try to understand.
Gage took me to the beach, and we had a good walk, walking as far as we could to where the beach ended and the rocks took over. The fresh air cleansed my mind and revitalized me. Holding Gage's hand also helped too. I liked that feeling of closeness between us. It kept that glow that surrounded my heart present.
When I looked at him, I thought that I'd without a doubt found a lot more in Italy than I bargained for.
He was a totally unexpected occurrence, and the strange thing was we acted as if we'd always been this way. As if we'd been together for a life time.
When we got back, and I saw Lucy. I gave her a big hug, letting her see that I was okay. Lucy had been in the living room, curled up on the sofa and looked quite worried until she saw me.
Gage left us alone to talk.
"Are you okay?" I asked her.
Lucy smiled and straightened up. "I'm fine Evie. I mean, I'm not a hundred percent, but I'm managing. If I hadn't been told about the tumor, I would never know."
"How did you know?" I wanted all the details. "How'd you find out?"
A sad look filled her eyes. "Gage came by to visit and found me on the floor. I'd passed out. I remember blacking out, and when I came to, I was in hospital with a bunch of doctors around me telling me I had a brain tumor."
"Weren't you scared?" I asked because Lucy had this calm look on her face, as calm as if she was talking about the weather.
I clasped my hands together when Lucy shook her head and laughed.
"The first thing I asked was if it would affect my hands. I at least held back on talking about music. But I had to tell us I played the violin when they started giving the information about the surgery and the potential repercussions. That was the scary part, Evie. That was the scary part."
I nodded. "It would terrify me if I couldn't play anymore."
"I thought about the times in my life that I couldn't play, and it was always when some tragedy had happened. The first time was when I was told Angelo was killed. The next was when my son was killed. On both occasions, it felt like my spirit died along with them and I was in a place where I'd never be happy again."
It had been awhile since I'd spoken to Lucy like this, where she shared her most inner thoughts and feelings with me. I was happy to have this relationship with her. I could tell her anything too.
Lucy reached out and tapped my head giving me a warm smile. "I don't ever want to feel like that again. You saved me from going back to that place the other night, just like how you encouraged me over all the years I've known you." Her face was full of strength, shining with a steadfast and serene peace that captivated me.
My eyes filled with tears. "Lucy, losing you terrifies me."
I wiped at the tears as they streamed down my cheeks. I didn't want to make Lucy feel bad but I also couldn't hold the tears back either.
"My dearest girl. You will always have me. Whether in body or spirit you will always have me and when you play, I'll be there in the music, because you play from your heart and your emotions. You play with everything that is you." Lucy nodded.
"Thank you." I leaned into her awaiting arms snuggling against her like I used to when I was a child.
"You're eternally welcome dear. How about we go somewhere nice today? We haven't really looked around Tuscany yet. We have to do that."
"I would absolutely love that." I nodded settling back into the sofa.
"Maybe just us girls?" Curiosity filled Lucy's eyes. "Then we could talk about Gage."
I could feel myself blushing as my cheeks grew warm.
"Gage... like what would we talk about?"
Lucy laughed. "Sweet girl I wasn't born yesterday, and I may be an old boot, but it doesn't usually take two people to make punch."
