Page 47 of Pregnancy Scandal
“Okay. You tell me what’s on your mind soon though.”
He nodded. “I will.”
“You think I should see her? Abby?” I would have loved to see her now.
“Go see her as a friend, not her boyfriend.”
That was going to be hard.
* * *
I waited until later. It was close to eight.
Today, we should have been packing up her stuff to bring to my place.
The way things looked, however, told me that plan was out the window.
I found her sitting out by the poolside on one of the deck chairs. Her hair was wet, and it looked like she’d gone for a swim. She loved swimming at night.
At least she smiled when she saw me.
It was a gentle smile. Small and polite.
Not like the kind I’d grown used to over the last few weeks.
The close to two months that I’d had her.
I sat on the chair in front of her.
“Hey,” I began.
“Hey. No lip ring today?”
She always noticed. “No, didn’t feel like it. Wanted to see how you are.”
She gave me a little shrug. “I don’t know.”
That didn’t help.
“I’m not here to pressure you or invade your time and space. I’m here as your friend. In the past, if you had a problem, it didn’t matter if the problem was about me, you’d tell me. I know this is different, but I’m your best friend. It’s my duty to be there for you even if the problem is me.” I nodded.
She wiped away a tear. “And what if the problem is me, Gilly? What if it’s me?” Her voice shook as she spoke.
“Doesn’t matter. You can still talk to me.”
She looked me over and wiped away another tear. “I’m scared. I’ve never been in love before, and I’m scared. Weeks ago, my world changed when the most amazing guy I know gave me two choices. All I heard, though, was the first choice. Be with him and have a baby. In that moment, as badly as I wanted the baby before, I wanted him more than anything. I was able to push away my fears about heartbreak and go with what my heart wanted. At the time, I couldn’t see anything beyond us, and the only thing that would stop me from taking such an opportunity was me. Me… and it’s me again because I’m scared to continue down this path and you choose her. Giselle.”
I hung my head. It was back to that question again. What could I tell her?
The only thing that came to my mind was to tell her how I felt, and it would be all I could do.
“If there’d been you, there would have never been her. And even when it was her, there was always you. Even when it wasn’t and I was with someone else, there was always you. Yes, you saw me fall for Giselle. I admit that, but, Abby, there’s not a woman on this planet I want more than you. That will never change, but you have to believe it. I gave you two choices. There is still option B.” It broke me to say that, but as her friend, I had to be objective and say it to her. “Either way. You have me. You know that no matter what, you have me, and I’ll always be there for you. No matter what you choose. Always there holding your hand.”
That was all I could say.
The rest was up to her.
I left her with that thought.
