Page 84 of Loving Lauren
The audience was quiet, leaning in. Sierra felt her shoulders ease. For once, speaking didn’t feel like standing under a spotlight—it felt like standing shoulder to shoulder with everyone else in the room.
When she wrapped up, a woman in the front row lifted her hand. “Do you ever have other speakers share their personal stories? Sometimes hearing from someone who’s walked a similar path can be more powerful than any technique.”
Sierra hesitated, then nodded. “We do when someone feels ready. Actually, my partner Lauren has been talking about sharing more of their story.” Her gaze softened. “I think their perspective could mean a lot here.”
As if on cue, Lauren appeared in the doorway, arriving just as they’d planned after finishing their afternoon client. They’d dressed carefully for this, professional but approachable, in the soft lavender sweater that brought out their eyes.
The director, Nathan, immediately stood. “Lauren, perfect timing. I was hoping to ask you something. Could we step into my office for a minute?”
Lauren and Sierra followed him into his office where he continued. “We’re launching a new initiative specifically for LGBTQIA+ youth who are experiencing family rejection or homelessness. Would you consider sharing your story at our first event? We think it could really impact young people who feel like they have no future.”
Lauren went still for a moment, and Sierra could see them processing the request. They’d talked about this possibility, but now that it was real, the weight of it showed on their face.
“When?” Lauren asked quietly.
“Next month. It would be about a twenty-minute talk, followed by Q&A if you’re comfortable. We’d have counselors available, and it would be a safe, supportive environment. If you’re not ready, then whenever you are, we’d love to have you.”
Lauren looked at Sierra, who gave them an encouraging nod.
“Yes.” Lauren’s voice grew stronger. “Yes, I think I need to do this.”
Three months later, Lauren and Sierra arrived at an auditorium fuller than expected. There were teenagers, young adults, some parents, counselors, and advocates. Sierra sat in the front row, heart pounding with proud nervousness as Lauren adjusted the microphone.
“My name is Lauren.” They paused just long enough to make eye contact with a row of nervous-looking kids near the front. “When I was sixteen, my parents kicked me out of our house because I told them I couldn’t be the son they wanted me to be.”
Their voice was steady, but Sierra caught the slight tremor in their hands as they gripped the podium.
“I used to believe that meant I was broken. That if the people who raised me couldn’t love me, no one ever would.” They exhaled, voice dipping softer. “I know some of you might feel that way, too. Like you’re too much, or not enough, or just... wrong.”
A murmur rippled through the audience, a few kids nodding almost without realizing it.
Lauren let the silence stretch before continuing. “I want you to hear me clearly. You arenotbroken. You arenotwrong. You areexactlywho you’re supposed to be.”
They shared their story with raw honesty. The confusion of early childhood, the years of trying to be what others expected, the devastating loss of family, the dark period of believing they had no future. At one point, their voice caught.
“There were nights I didn’t think I’d make it to morning,” they admitted, eyes flicking to the floor before lifting again. “I thought maybe it would be easier for everyone if I just... wasn’t here anymore.”
The room went utterly still.
“But I’m standing here because I found people who really saw me. I found a chosen family. I found love that didn’t ask me to shrink or change, and eventually, I found the courage to build a life instead of just surviving one.”
Their eyes found Sierra in the audience then, and the soft, grateful smile that crossed their face seemed to steady them.
“If you’re here tonight and you’re scared, if your family doesn’t understand, if you feel alone... please know your story isn’t finished. There are people who will love you exactly as you are. There are places where you belong, even if you haven’t found them yet. Hold on long enough to get there.”
When Lauren opened it up for questions, hands shot up immediately. A teenage boy in the third row went first.
“How did you find the courage to keep going when everything felt hopeless?”
Lauren considered the question, then leaned against the podium, softening their posture. “I started small. One day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time. I found one person who accepted me, then another. I created tiny pockets of safety and slowly expanded them. There were setbacks, bad days, but over time the balance shifted toward hope.”
A young woman near the back asked, “Did you ever reconcile with your family?”
“No,” Lauren replied gently. “And that’s okay. Sometimes family is the people who raised you. Sometimes it’s the people who choose you. I found family in my friends, in my partner, in communities like this one. Love comes in many forms.”
After the event, young people crowded around, some wanting to share their own stories, some just wanting to be near someone who understood. Sierra watched as Lauren hugged a crying teenager, exchanged numbers with a young trans man, and posed for selfies with kids who looked like they’d just met a superhero.
Later, in the car, Lauren leaned their head back against the seat and let out a long breath.
