Page 48 of The Saviors: Part Two
“Yes, it is!” I reach out and grab his arm before I can overthink what I’m about to do. Kai can easily overpower me, but I have to prove to him that I’m not backing down. I tighten my grip when he tries to pull away. “Just breathe.”
His chest is heaving, his eyes getting wide and panicked. “Let go,” he rasps.
“No. Look in my eyes, Kai. You don’t want to hurt me. You’re fine, and I’m fine.” I know I’m pushing, but something has to get through his thick skull. “Touch me.”
“I can’t,” he says raggedly.
“You can.” I jerk hard on his arm, catching him off guard. He sprawls across my chest, his mouth right at mine. “Touch. Me.”
His lips peel back from his teeth, his eyes wild and black. I think he’s about to snap my neck when his lips land hard against mine. I relax into the pillows and give him all the control. The kiss is hard, almost brutal, and it’s making me crave more. But I keep my hands in tight fists beside my hips to keep from touching him. Kai climbs the rest of the way onto the bed and sits back on his knees between my thighs. He reaches shaky hands toward my chest and closes his eyes before they come in contact. “I can’t do this.”
“Yes, you can,” I say, softening my voice. “Open your eyes, Gorilla. Let me help you.” His eyes snap open, and I sit up slowly to pull my shirt over my head. My legs are already starting to get the feeling back, so I can concentrate on Kai. I lay back against the pillows. “Don’t you remember how good it felt having your hands all over me and Chelsea? I know her tits are better than mine, but this is a start.” He huffs a laugh, and his shoulders relax slightly. “Take what you need to figure out that you aren’t the monster that you think you are.”
He slowly lowers his hands to my pecs but jerks them back quickly. I just lay there, unfazed, waiting for him to make his move. This happens a few times until I see the resolve settle across his face. When he places them this time, he doesn’t move them, then he spreads his hands wide to rub across my nipples and down my abs. When he rubs a hand over my hard cock through my sweatpants, he swallows. “Do you still like me touching you?”
“It’s one of the best feelings in the world,” I say honestly. For all our teasing bullshit, Kai and I need each other just as much as the others do. I didn’t realize the feelings I developed for him went way beyond sex until I found out he was missing. It was like a part of my soul was ripped from my body. “What do you need, Kai?”
“I just need to feel…something.”
I nod. “Let me help you feel again.”
“I’m not…I can’t…” he blows a breath out. “I’m not ready for that yet.”
“I’m not talking about sex, Kai. Get your mind out of the fucking gutter.” He actually laughs this time, and his shoulders completely relax. “But if you don’t quit rubbing my cock, this is going to go a whole different direction.”
He squeezes harder, making me groan. “But that noise and the look on your face drives me fucking insane. Can we just…fool around?”
“I’ll do whatever you want me to.” Kai’s brows furrow at the sincere tone in my voice, and I see the moment he realizes that I’m not just talking about right now. I mean for the rest of our lives together. He takes a breath, fists the back of his shirt, and jerks it over his head. “Do you know what I see when I look at you?” Kai shakes his head. “I see a fucking warrior. I don’t see a monster or someone who’s fucked up. I see someone willing to fight through fire just to get himself back so he can love his woman the right way.” Kai’s big body shudders, and I know I hit deep inside his thoughts. “We will all fight right beside you, Kai. You just have to let us.”
He jumps from the bed, and I think I’ve pushed him too far until he shoves his pants off with his boxers. His giant cock is hard as a rock and leaking pre-cum. He gently starts pulling mine off and stops. “We shouldn’t be doing this with your legs like that.”
I move them around. “It happens sometimes. I’m fine.” He pulls them off, and my cock slaps my stomach. Kai climbs back on the bed and tentatively wraps a hand around me. My hips leave the bed, and a moan falls from my lips.
“Touch me,” he says hoarsely and guides my hand to his cock.
Our eyes lock, and we start stroking each other until we’re fucking the other’s fists. Kai’s breathing speeds up, he knocks my hand away, and then his big body is covering mine. On instinct, my hands go to his back. When he doesn’t stop me, I start rubbing my hands greedily over his sweaty back. Our dicks are slipping against each other, jerking with each movement. “Fuck, I love touching you.”
Kai starts kissing and sucking on my neck. “I thought I lost you, Sean. He told me you were dead, and I can’t live with that.” His voice is ragged, and it tears my goddamn heart out.
“I’m right here. You’re stuck with me.”
He slides up my body, grinding against me. “I like that idea. I don’t want to be stuck with anyone else but you guys.” Before I can come up with a smartass comment, his lips seal over mine, and his hips start moving faster. I spread my legs wider, seconds away from begging him to fuck me when he reaches over to dig through the bedside table. He pulls back with a bottle of lube in his hand. “I need to be inside you.”
“Fuck, I thought you’d never ask. Please.” He slicks his cock up, and his hand goes toward my ass. I grab his wrist to stop him. “I just need you to fuck me.”
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You won’t. I promise. Please, Kai, just destroy me.”
He gives me a doubtful look but pulls back to put more lube on his cock. He braces one hand beside my head and lines up with the other. When I feel him starting to push inside, I bare down to help him slide in easier. Kai’s eyes snap to mine, and I can physically feel the change in our relationship. His thighs settle against the back of mine, and he gives me a chance to adjust to the burn of him stretching me. When he feels me relax, he starts to move slowly, the sense of urgency gone after the sudden realization that we aren’t just fooling around anymore, we’re building something. He slides his hand under my neck and hooks his hand onto my shoulder for leverage, then his lips are on mine, kissing me slowly. I let my hands roam over his back like I’m exploring him for the first time. I hook my legs on his hips and slide down the bed so he goes even deeper. “Fuck, Sean, you feel so damn good.”
He lays his forehead against mine, and I watch all the emotions cross his face. He’s feeling the same thing I am with the sudden change in our dynamic. I knew I needed Kai from the moment we saved him, but never to the capacity that it is now. If he’s taken from me, it will destroy me, and not in the fun way that he’s doing now. Kai finally lays the rest of his body against mine so his abs are rubbing my cock with each movement. The moan that leaves my mouth is loud as hell, but I don’t fucking care anymore. If this is what fixes him, I’ll do everything I can to make that happen. Kai drags slowly across my prostate, and I feel my release building in my fucking toes. He keeps the steady pressure on my cock, and doesn’t change his strokes. Kai pulls back to look at my face. “I love you, Sean.”
My release hits me like a fucking freight train at his words, and I come so hard that black spots dance in my vision. Kai moves so that the head of his cock is continuously rubbing my prostate. “Holy shit,” I gasp, my fingers digging into his biceps. “I love you too.”
Kai groans deep in his chest, and I feel him swell inside of me. I rub his back through it and make sure my eyes never leave his. He settles against me when he’s done, and I feel his body start shaking again. I wait for him to pull away, but he gets closer. “Thank you for pushing me.”
“Any time you want me to push you around, let me know.”
