Page 51 of Between Never and Forever
God, he looks so fucking sexy, naked and on his knees, hard cock jutting out from his body.
“Don’t move. I’ll be just a second.”
His expression is confused as I turn and rush into the hallway. Thank god no one is home. I sprint into my roommate’s room and go straight for her top dresser drawer. Please, please, please let there be condoms in here. When I open the drawer, my shoulders sag with relief.
“Jackpot.”
My roommate teases me all the time.If you ever decide to bring someone home, don’t forget a condom! I don’t want to have to rent the room to you AND a baby. I’ve got some if you don’t.
I always laughed her off until now. I grab one, then turn to leave, but stop myself. I turn back to the dresser and survey the box in the drawer. I think it over for just a second before I snatch the whole box and take it with me. Better to be safe, right?
When I get back to the room, Levi is sitting on my mattress with his long legs stretched out on the floor in front of him and his upper body propped on his forearms. Even in the darkness, he looks like sculpted perfection. To say I’m shocked would be an understatement.
I walk to him and toss the condom box on the bed, then climb onto the mattress next to him. He wastes no time, kissing me once more with a hunger I’ve only heard about in songs. His palms caress my skin, tugging and rubbing, as he lays me down on my back. I part my legs so his body can fit between them, and when his hard cock rubs against my wet, sensitive skin, I moan.
“You’re so perfect,” he rasps against me. “You’re so beautiful.”
I reach between us and palm him. When he thrusts into my hand with a groan, my chest tightens. When I speak, my words are whispered against his lips, into his mouth.
“Levi. You’re so...Is it...Do you think it will hurt, much?”
He pulls away slowly, surprised eyes scanning my face.
“You’re a virgin?”
I bite my lip and try to shrug off my immediate embarrassment. I huff out a fake laugh.
“I mean, don’t look so surprised.”
“No,” he says quickly, kissing me again. “It’s not that. I’m just...I’m honored is all. To be your first.”
I dig my fingers into his sides and lick my lips, bouncing my eyes between his.
“Have you, um, have you done this already?”
The way he winces guts me. Disappointment I never expected shoots from my head to my toes and makes my eyes sting. I want to double over from the force of it.
“Once. Just once.”
“Oh.”
Before I can stop, I picture her. The girl he gave his virginity to. Hisonce.
Someone from college. Someone from a good family. Someone who doesn’t strip for money. Someone with a halo and wings to match his. I bet his mom would like her. Blonde-haired, blue-eyed, and perfect in every way. Like him.
“If I had known...” he says, pulling me from my thoughts. “If I had even thought there was a chance—” he cuts off and kisses me again, then presses his forehead to mine.
“I wish it was you, Sav. I wish it was you.”
That whispered confession does enough to loosen all my muscles, to calm the pain in my chest and soothe away my need to cry. I tell myself the other girl meant nothing. Pastor’s kid rebellion. This time is what counts.
I nod and give him a small smile.
“I’ll get you ready, okay? I’ll make sure it feels good for you.”
Slowly, he kisses his way down my body, leaving goosebumps in the wake of his lips, until he’s situated between my thighs and his hot breath fans over my pussy. I’m wet and throbbing, and when he licks me the first time, my whole body jerks. He uses his forearm to press down on my hips and does it again, this time circling my clit with his tongue and sucking.
“Oh, Christ,” I groan. “Oh, Jesus Christ.”
