Page 108 of Degradation
I shiver a little, my tummy fluttering at his words as I close my eyes.
I feel his hands snake over my shoulders and caress my encased breasts boldly before moving one hand between my legs and cupping me.
‘Are you still sore?’ he asks.
‘Not really,’ I reply.
‘The cream helped?’
I nod.
‘Good because Rock, Paper, Scissors is my game. I will win every time, so you’re going to have me in your bed every single night until Mav wises up and makes us choose another way.’
I look at him, wondering if he thinks we know each other well enough to have sex. I don’t think we do. He must see something in my face because he winces.
‘No, not that. Not yet. I told you there are a ton of other things I want to do with you. If you’re up for it.’
I nod a little hesitantly.
‘You’ll have your safe words. But I don’t think you’ll need them. You’ll love every depraved thing I do to you, my gorgeous little slut.’
My breathing hitches.
‘I love that you like it when I talk to you like that.’
‘I don’t understand why I do,’ I confess, looking away. ‘It’s... I feel... What does it say about me?’
‘Nothing,’ he murmurs, holding me closer from behind. ‘It says nothing about you, gorgeous, nothing bad anyway. It’s just something you like. And you’ll find other things you like too, and some things you don’t at all. Everyone’s different and so long as you’re not hurting anyone, so long as you’re having fun, what does it matter what you like?’
His words make sense and the uncertainty I feel recedes a little. I think it’ll take some time before I’m completely comfortable with it and I tell him so.
‘I’ll temper my humiliating words with sweet ones whenever you need me to.’
I let out a sigh.
‘Now, get dressed.’ He gives me a tap on the rump. ‘Don’t want to be late for class.’
He leaves me alone and I grab a pair of my most comfy jeans to offset the underwear if they do end up being a problem as the day wears on. I throw them on with a shirt over top and a sweater. Shoving on my boots and putting my hair up in a high ponytail.
My blue coat goes on last as I stare out the window at the frost on the grass below. Blake’s present has quickly become my very favorite item of clothing and it’s so warm. I’ve realized that I’ve actually been cold outside for weeks. I didn’t notice. I didn’t have a coat, I couldn’t buy a coat, so I was just soldiering on without one and not allowing myself to think about it.
I grab my bag and make sure my secret project papers are out of sight. I’m close. A few more simulations in the lab and I think I’ll have the fixed formula for Envy, and my Plan B, my future, will be assured. There’s just a couple of kinks I can’t quite work out yet.
Arriving at class early, I sit in the back with my head down. I’ve already finished the work that I need to do this semester for this one anyway, so I pay attention with half an ear so that I can answer questions correctly if I get called on.
Lu messages me asking me to visit her while she’s working so I swing by Grinder afterward. I wave when I see her behind the counter and she grins, waving back with her customary bounciness. She brings a latte to my table when she has a minute and sits down with me.
‘Are you okay?’ I ask. ‘I didn’t hear from you all weekend.’
‘Yeah,’ she shrugs. ‘Family stuff. Nothing major, just took up my time. So, first. Mich was asking about you. You know he’s rooming on his own now.’
She waggles her eyebrows, and I frown, shaking my head in confusion.
‘In case you wanted to jump his bones,’ she says with a roll of her eyes. ‘You were saying before Halloween that you wanted to get a little experience. Remember? Mich is such a nice guy. He’d be a safe lay, if you know what I mean.’ She looks away. ‘You know after what happened... In case you were scared of...’
‘Oh! No. I jumped Shade’s bones.’
It bursts out of me before I can stop it and I gasp, slapping my hands over my mouth, my eyes wide.
