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Does it really matter if Locke knows what we did together? An odd feeling in the pit of my stomach has me frowning in the gloom.
‘I won’t have to tell him anything. He’ll assume I was at a brothel.’ He gives me a wink. ‘But in truth my time was occupied with someone farmorein every way.’
I can’t help my small smile at his words even as he leaves the room and I close my eyes to sleep again, cuddling closer to Jak.
‘Bryn?’
‘Hmm?’
I blink sleepily and rub my eyes, yawning behind my hand.
‘It’s time to wake. We leave soon.’
Oh.
I sit up and stretch, my body feeling strong and my mind clearing rapidly. The bed is warm and comfortable, and for once I’m waking without the aches and pains that are in the background, typically ignored, but always there.
‘How do you feel?’
He asks the question casually, but when I look up at Jak, his eyes are on me and unwavering.
‘Well,’ I say slowly.
‘Different at all? Remember your promise,’ he reminds me, gaze boring into me.
I frown. ‘Yes. Stronger, then, I think.’
He sits at the table hard. ‘I thought you might,’ he mumbles.
I rise from the bed. ‘I don’t understand.’
‘Carnal acts. I had a feeling you might feeldifferenttoday after Morgan and I last night.’
I freeze at his words, my body and mind stuttering to a stop.
‘You thought that me being with you both would force a change in me?’ I ask, battling to sound normal.
He nods, oblivious to my inner turmoil.
Was last night, them and me, a master’s experiment? A way of finding out more about the Kismet?
I turn away, feeling sick.
Was Jak just trying to uncover the mysteries of the odd human?
I thought...
I asked him to, I tell myself ruthlessly. I wanted him to give me answers. There’s no reason to be upset that they were using me. I’m used to it, after all, and perhaps I was unknowingly using them as well.
Fighting tears, I get myself together before I face him and when I do, he’s packing up, seemingly deep in thought.
Feeling numb, I berate myself for my stupidity. I know better, don’t I? I’m still a slave here no matter my disguise. I close my eyes, tell myself to stop being a fool.
I’ll be in the Light Realm soon.Free. Nothing else matters.
Jak
‘There’s food for you,’ I say absently, gesturing to the table as I think about what this could mean.
