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A gasp got caught between us as she gripped my wrist and went rigid. I pressed closer, unsure what came next, only knowing I didn’t want it to stop. And as if reading my thoughts, her tongue teased across the seam of my lips. Opening to her, I slicked my tongue along hers, devouring the taste of the treat I’d fed her.
She was all sweetness and eagerness.
Her little groan went straight to my dick. I hadn’t even been aware I could feel anything there. But by the growing stiffness in my pants, it was clear I could. Her tongue moved with mine like she’d been waiting. Maybe I wasn’t the only one with urges I couldn’t ignore.
The euphoria was immediate and intense. Bliss I’d never thought possible. Sensations that only made me want more. Urges sprouting from answering urges. Wanting, needing, pining. The emotions I’d mocked and thought I was above crashed into me the second I kissed Nomi.
I finally got what all the fuss was about.
I moved on pure instinct, flicking, sliding, and searching her mouth with my tongue. Devouring her the same way I did the cookie she’d fed me. It was so good that I moved closer, hand reaching for her thigh, intent on discovering more of the feeling it roused in this body of mine.
Maybe Zelus wasn’t totally full of lies if this was how good it felt to touch someone.
But then she pulled away, and it was the first I’d ever seen her mad. “You can’t do that, Ghost. We…” An intense sadness swamin her eyes as she glowered at me. “We shouldn’t do this. I really need to write these letters. I don’t know how long I have, and I need enough for a year. More if I can manage it.”
The fact that her time was short shouldn’t come as a surprise to me, but it hit my chest like one. It bothered me to hear it put into words. I didn’t like how confident she was about it.
She swallowed, her gaze flicking down to the paper in front of her as if to put an end to everything, even as the skin around her nose and eyes blazed red. “Thank you for the coffee and treat. I’ll see you in the morning.”
It was a dismissal, and the feeling in my chest was back, stronger than before.
My familiars were careful around her letters, but they stayed close. She let them, unlike me. I glanced at them before leaving.
Once I got to the living room, I pulled out the phone I kept mainly to stay in touch with the other Horsemen. Ares hadn’t texted, but Zelus and Thanatos had both sent several and tried to call. After shooting off a few texts, I put the next stage of my plan into action. It was time to find Michael. It was time to do like I’d planned to do from the beginning and leave the mortal to her letters.
I put the phone in my back pocket and walked over to the couch, unable to make sense out of the burning in my throat. If I hadn’t known better, I’d almost think I was upset or frustrated, but I didn’t feel emotions like those. And the mortal was right. We shouldn’t do more than we already had.
Once I had Ares’s location, I’d leave.
I rubbed a fist over my chest, lost to thoughts as her scribbling resumed.
Chapter Nine
Nomi
Several days had passed since Ghost kissed me and every nerve in my body seemed to center around my mouth andtongue. I tried to ignore the disappointment weighing down my stomach when he kept his distance like I’d asked.
It was my own fault. I’d rejected him so strongly, it’d be weirder if he hadn’t. I was afraid, though. I didn’t want to fall for someone who was going to leave. I’d barely come to terms with the fact that the minute he did, I’d be dead where I stood.
Instead, I focused on Felix’s letters. I’d written nearly a hundred, all numbered, all ready to be read in order. The first one came with instructions, and it’d be left on top of the box when…
I dashed away another tear and scribbled another story about us onto the paper. I reminded Felix how important it was to live, how I wanted him to be happy, and how much I wished I could be there to see those joyful years with him. Every letter ended with me reminding Felix to be happy and live or he wouldn’t be honoring my memory.
Rubbing my eyes to keep the tears at bay, I gently tucked the newest letter into the box. It was already full, so I’d move onto the next. I also needed more supplies. I didn’t have enough for tomorrow’s letters, so I couldn’t put it off anymore.
I never once thought I’d get this much time, but I was grateful. I’d spent every day with Felix, bickering over treats, taunting him about his relationship with Maude, hugging him, and telling him how much I loved him even when it made him get that worried look on his face.
I checked my phone. I’d come home a bit early since I needed to go to the store, so I’d have time to get there before they closed. Grabbing my purse, I left the room and headed for the door. Suddenly, Ghost was there.
He canted his head, his way of questioning me, and I smiled. “I need to go to the store for some things. It won’t take too long.”
I moved around him and headed down. I didn’t have a car. I couldn’t afford one. But it wasn’t a long walk to the nearbysuperstore. I had to be grateful I lived somewhere I could walk everywhere.
I always kept a knife on me because walking at night as a woman meant I needed at least some protection. With Ghost, probably not necessary, but it made me feel better to have a hold on it.
We walked in silence.
He hadn’t mentioned the kiss, and I hadn’t brought it up because I’d already told him it wasn’t a good idea. But I thought about it every day and dreamed about it every night.
