Page 61 of Stained Hearts
I chuckled. The first time I breached him, he hissed and tensed. I stayed where I was, pushing in only a centimeter or two, giving him time to adjust. When his breathing evened out, I pushed in a little more, and he moaned.
“So good.”
His words spurred me on. One finger became two, then three. He was writhing, pushing down on my digits. Finally I thought he might be ready, but then I remembered….
“Fuck.”
“Yes! Do that.” His head popped up. “Wait, what?”
“I don’t have condoms.”
“Oh.” That nibbled lip again. “Do we need them?”
That was a good question. I’d only ever been with Brian, and it was a year and two tests before we ditched them for us. I had always been faithful to him and hadn’t had any sex since he died.
“I’ve only ever been with one man.”
He gave me that beautiful smile of his. “And I’ve never been with anyone. I don’t think we’re going to find two people who need condoms less right now.”
“You have to be sure. I don’t want you to regret this choice.”
Aiden reached out and stroked my cheek. “Remember when I said I trust you? Brian gave you the chance to go out and be with other guys, and you turned him down. You’re not made that way. Who could I trust more?”
Once again, he honored me with his belief in me.
“All right.” I kissed the head of his dick. “I have to tell you, the first time might be uncomfortable.”
“It’ll be fine, Tom. I know you won’t hurt me unnecessarily.” He wiggled his hips. “Now get on with it.” He waggled his brows, and I chuckled. Aiden was a light in my life that I never expected to find. Why couldn’t I tell him how I felt?
The lube was cool as I applied it to my shaft. The smooth, silky feel of it had me throbbing. I wanted inside Aiden in the worst way.
“I think we should do this on our sides. I don’t want to strain your legs, and I won’t hurt you. Will that be okay?”
He nodded, his eyes wide.
“What’s wrong?”
A quick shake of his head. “It’s just…. You’re thinking ahead, worrying that you might hurt my legs. That’s…. You’re a beautiful person, Tom.”
One insane thought passed through my head—I wondered if he’d ever call me Tommy. I missed hearing that name. It was like a special treat. Maybe one day.
I helped him onto his side, being careful not to move his legs around too much. We’d need to talk to his doctor to find out what he could handle so that neither of us injured him. Once he was comfortable, I ran my hand down his flank, wanting to calm him. I stroked my shaft with the other hand, making sure the lube covered everywhere. I lay down behind him, pulling him a little closer to me. My cock was positioned at his opening, and it was taking a lot of willpower not to rush this.
I leaned in and kissed Aiden on the neck. I thought he said something. “What was that?”
He shook his head. “I didn’t say anything.”
Why I didn’t believe that, I don’t know. Maybe because his voice was so soft? I slid up the bed and nuzzled his neck.
“Aiden, what did you say?”
“I swear, I didn’t say anything. I just… I can’t believe I’m here, with you, doing this. It’s like a dream, you know?”
“For me too.” And it was.
“Now get a move on before we have to start over. Not that I mind you rimming me, you understand.”
I laughed. In the weirdest of moments, he was making me feel good simply by being himself.
