Page 39 of Should've Been Us
Chapter Nine
Lulu wokeup to the feel of being completely cocooned in warmth. Her first thought was that she must’ve grabbed the heating blanket she sometimes used in the winter but then the supposed blanket shifted against her and she gasped. That wasn’t a blanket. That was six plus feet of sex on legs and dynamite between the sheets. A walking and talking sex god who’d made her see stars multiple times last night before she’d apparently passed out in hisbed.
Shit.
So much for her‘this isn’t anything but casual sex’bullshit. She’d never really been into the casual thing but she was fairly certain you didn’t sleep over if it was only supposed to be a one-night stand. Then again, she didn’t think either of them had bought that line about her only using him for his body anyway so maybe it didn’tmatter.
She’d only thought she was confused yesterday. After he’d kissed her and turned her world upside down. Today, well today was going to be a disaster of epic proportions because she had no idea where they stoodnow.
“You know I can practically hear the wheels in your head turning, right?” A gruff, husky voice came from just behind her at the same time the big hand that had been resting on her hip slid around her to rest against herstomach.
She bit her lip, “Did I wakeyou?”
“No. I’ve been awake for awhile.”
“Doingwhat?”
“Watching you sleep.” He chuckled and she was glad he was behind her where he couldn’t see her smile, “What? Not gonna call me a creepy stalker like you did when you thought I broke into yourroom?”
“It’s a little different now, seeing as how I’m in your bednaked.”
“Mmm, that you are.” The big hand on her belly slid higher, cupping her breast, “Talk about a goodmorning.”
Her body responded instantly. She moaned and her head fell back. Connor was there, catching her against his chest as he teased her with little kisses along her shoulder and his fingers worked their magic. She shifted restlessly, caught between knowing she should get up and get out of his bed and simply letting him make her feel good for a little whilelonger.
“Are you wet for me, Lu?” His voice was gruff and sheshivered.
“Find out foryourself.”
“Feisty. God I love that about you.” His laugh was low and sexy, “Makes me wonder if you’re really up for that dream package you asked for lastnight.”
Her breath caught and heat slid over her at the blatantly sexual promise behind those words. She’d asked him for whatever he did to women to make them go googly eyed and he’d told her she wasn’t ready for that. He’d then proceeded to drive her out of her mind with his hands and his tongue and his cock. There was more? Good God she might not survive with her sanityintact.
Connor chuckled again, “What exactly have you heard about me,Lu?”
“I uh… I heard y-you like control.” She stuttered a little because he was teasing his fingers along herstomach.
“So you know how big a deal it was for me to let you call the shots lastnight?”
She nodded because her throat felt tight. She’d known he was holding back, for her. She’d needed it to be her choice and somehow, he’d understood that completely without her having to say aword.
“Last night, I let you have your way. God it was good, Lu. We’re so damn good together. But I need to show you it can be even better if you let me lead. You think you can trust me to have my way this morning,baby?”
His way. What did that even mean? Lulu swallowedhard.
She should really get up and get the hell out of this room. She needed a cold shower. She needed some time and some space to sort through everything that had happened between them last night. She needed to replay all of those beautiful sweet things he had said to her and try to figure out just how she felt about himnow.
Because she didn’t think she could hold onto the lie that she didn’t even like him as a person after the way he’d looked at her and treated her lastnight.
Connor sighed, the sound heavy and sad, and his hand on her stomach stilled, “It’s okay. I get it. It’s a lot toask.”
She could feel his retreat and she hated herself for still doubting him. He’d been nothing but good to her last night. He’d left it up to her. He’d let her take control. He’d been sweet and kind and he’d held her close all through thenight.
She knew him. She knew he wasn’t a bad guy. She knew that he would never purposefully hurt her. So then why couldn’t she trust him to give her more pleasure than she’d everknown?
“Wait.” She caught his hand as he began to slip away from her. “Just…wait.”
Connor’s fingers laced with hers and he squeezed gently, “Forever. I’d wait for you forever,Lu.”
