Page 41 of Should've Been Us
She whimpered as her body tensed, trying to hold him deep inside ofher.
“I’m here, Lu. I got you. Let go. Just letgo.”
Lulu closed her eyes and let the pleasure wash through her. She didn’t have to think. She didn’t have to worry. She didn’t have to try to impress him or be something that she wasn’t. He wanted her. Just like this, just the way she was, Connor wanted her. He wanted to be in control. He wanted to make her feel good. All she had to do was leave it up tohim.
Letting go, letting him take the lead, giving herself over to him, it was the most freeing thing she’d everfelt.
Connor’s way turned out to be a lot rougher than her way had been. He took her hard and fast. He muttered filthy obscenities. He held her down when she twisted beneath him. He would undoubtedly leave bruises and instead of worrying her, her heart soared at the idea of him wanting her so badly that he couldn’t begentle.
Nobody had ever wanted her like this. Not with this kind of passion. Not with this kind ofpossessiveness.
That first night here in Mexico, she’d asked him why nobody wanted her. He’d said she was drunk and put her to bed. He hadn’t told her how much he wanted her. Not then. But he’d told her since in all of the little things he did for her and he was showing her now with hisbody.
Everything she’d always wanted. To feel wanted and desired and cherished. He gave it to her without hesitation. Everything she’d always needed. To be seen and heard and chosen first. He gaveher.
How was she supposed to do anything but accept that and him and take the pleasure heoffered?
She didn’t know how it would work. They came close to killing each other on a daily basis. They argued about literally everything under the sun. This thing between the two of them had sparked so unexpectedly for her but he’d wanted her for years. They were in paradise, in forced proximity, with the heat and the wedding bearing down on them. If they were back in Fate, back home in Texas, would this have happened eventually? Once she let go of her feelings for Derek, would Connor have been there for her? Or was she tricking herself into believing this was anything but some great vacationsex?
“Stay with me.” Connor’s voice had gone taunt and she felt him shuddering as he held himself up over her, “Stay with me,Lu.”
She softened and rose up just enough to brush her lips over his, “I’m here. I’m with you.Promise.”
“You ready to come?” He released her hip and slid his hand between her legs, finding and rubbing her clit as he continued to drive into her. “Come on, baby. Come for me. That’s my first order. You come for me or I’m gonna spank this sweet pussy. Come on, Lu. Come forme.”
She bit her lip. Connor narrowed his eyes. He growled and then the sweet tease of his fingers rubbing her clit was gone. There was a second where she reconsidered her decision but then he smacked her. Not light or teasing. He slapped her mound hard enough to sting and she gasped as she pain sent a shockwave through her system. Her entire body tightened and she could feel every inch of Connor inside her. She gasped at the wholly new sensation but it wasn’t new for long. He smacked her again and the heat flared through her. This time she gave into it. She tipped her head back and let it take her over the edge. Her climax knocked the air out of her and she felt Connor jerk as he joined her in hisrelease.
They collapsed together on the bed. Both breathing hard and covered in sweat and come. Their bodies wrapped around each other. He was still half on top of her but despite his weight she held him there because she couldn’t be sure she wouldn’t fall apart again without him to hold hertogether.
“I’ll move in a sec.” Connor groaned after a few minutes, “Soon as my blood returns to myhead.”
“Mmm, stay.” She ran her nails down his back and heshivered.
“That was… intense.” He sat up enough to look at her and she smiled at the soft worry on his handsomeface.
“It’s not always likethat?”
“Never.” He pulled her hand to his mouth and kissed it gently. “Only withyou.”
God, he really was a sweet-talker. She melted a little bit for him when he said shit like that. He was full of it of course. She knew all those girls back home in Fate that got all starry eyed over Deputy Shaw had probably been told the samethings.
“Uh uh.” He gripped her chin and forced her to meet his gaze, “I don’t say that to all thegirls.”
“I didn’t even say it!” She laughed and hegrinned.
“You didn’t have to. It’s written right there on your pretty face. But when have you ever known me to lie or sugarcoat anything for you, Lu?” He gave her a pointed look, “The only time I’ve ever come close to sex that good was whenI….”
Connor trailed off and suddenly rolledover.
“Con? What’s wrong?” She instantly felt her defenses sliding back intoplace.
“Shit.” He muttered and then shook his head, “If I tell you, you have to promise not to freakout.”
“Well that seems unlikely.” She sat up quickly pulling the blankets over her breasts. “Just tell me what’swrong.”
“It’s not that anything is wrong… per se…” He winced when she pinned him with a hard stare, “We didn’t use acondom.”
Lulu blinked at him as the words sank in. They hadn’t used a condom. The thought had never once entered her head. It should have. She knew that. There were plenty of reasons to be careful not to mention the fact that she’d only just started sleeping with him but she hadn’t stopped them or told him to get one. Not this morning or last night for thatmatter.
