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I purse my lips and shake my head, the more he speaks, the more pissed off I get.“So what are you gonna do city boy?Swoop in here and save me?Where were you ten years ago when I needed you?You think you can waltz back into town, throw your big city police muscle around and I’m just gonna fall to my knees and thank you?”I suddenly can’t look at him; I can’t even be in the same room with him.I storm into the living room, ready to leave the house and take myself as far away from him as possible.
I wipe at the tears that have dried on my cheeks as Beck reaches for me, grabbing hold of my elbow.I yank away from him and when I turn around I see the hurt in his eyes and I almost cave.
“You think you’re the only one who gets to be hurt in this?”he demands, his voice loud and echoing.“Do you have any idea the fucking hell you’ve put me through for the last ten years?Not to mention this,” he says gesturing at the obvious finger imprints on my neck.
“Me?!Are you fucking kidding me?”By now I’m fuming.If I were a cartoon character smoke would be pouring from my ears.“You.Left.Me.”I say each word slow and deliberate.He can’t possibly blame this on me.
“You didn’t come with me!”he screams back.
“It’s the same goddamn argument.You weren’t kidding when you said some things never change.”I shake my head knowing neither one of us is willing to give in and admit fault.“You need to leave, Beck.”
“I’m not going anywhere,” he says and reaches for me again.I recoil, but that doesn’t stop him.He grabs my upper arms and pulls me towards him.I’m powerless to fight him.Exhausted and defeated, I let him.
His arms encircle my small frame and for just a second I let myself find the comfort and safety in him that I’ve missed all these years; that I’ve needed since all this started with Jason.
“I’ve missed you, Kels,” he says, and it nearly ruins me.
Chapter Six
Beck
Fuck me.
Fuck me this is something I never thought I’d get to feel again.Kelsey is pressed against my chest, her tiny body, flush with mine and everything about it feels so goddamn fucking perfect that for the first time in a decade, I start to question why the fuck I ever left this place.I’ve been kidding myself if I thought I was over this woman, if I thought the countless random and meaningless fucks I’ve had over the years even came close to replicating what I had with her.There is no getting over Kelsey; this woman owns me, she’s always owned me and no matter how hard I try, there’s no changing that.I don’t think I’d ever want to.
I nuzzle her hair, pressing my nose against her ear.I’m about to whisper that we should head to the bedroom so I can get her naked as soon as possible, when she suddenly pushes me away, her hands on my chest and shoving me back.
“Fuck off, Beck,” she says, her eyes glistening with tears.“You don’t get to come in here and save me.”
“Kels,” I say, stepping towards her again.“Don’t do this.”
“Don’t do this?”she says, incredulously.“Don’t fucking do this?How about you?”she screams, jabbing me in the chest now.“Don’t fucking dothis!”
“What?!”I yell, throwing my hands up in frustration.
Kelsey stands there, hands on her hips, face flushed, hair wild and her don’t-fuck-with-me face on.I have to bite my lip so as not to smile because it’s the same look she used to give me when we were kids.I usually got it when I told her I was going out with the boys instead of her and she wanted to tell me she wasn’t happy about that.It’s the look she uses when she’s trying to be little miss tough girl and get her own way.It used to work on me every single time, because it’s also the look that would lead to the wildest sex we’d ever had.
And because of that, it’s the look that has always turned me on so fucking bad.And tonight is no exception.I haven’t seen this girl in ten years and even though she’s screaming at me, she’s scared and in trouble, and she’s just pushed me away, I’m hard as a fucking rock.
And I wanna fuck her so bad right now.
I take another step towards her.
“No!”she screams again.“Don’t, Beck.Ten fucking years ago, I needed you, but you weren’t here,” she says, her hand on my chest again.“Five fucking years ago, when Dad died, I needed you, but you weren’t here.I’m done fucking needing you, Beck,” she says, her face red from yelling.“So fuck off!”
My blood is coursing through my veins now.My cock, which is harder than it’s ever been, is pulsing in my pants.I have an urgent, almost desperate, need to be buried inside her before I come in my pants like a teenage boy.
Last night when Finn had called, I thought I’d be able to come up here and sort this shit out in a weekend and then head back to Boston.I’d only gone into work this morning to finish off the paperwork on the Jane Donovan/Dixon case, so that I could drive back late Monday morning.But when Kelsey had walked in ten minutes ago, all that had been shot to fucking shit.I’d thought missing her in Boston was bad enough, but it was nothing compared to how I felt when she was standing right in front of me.
And now, as Kelsey screams at me, her chest heaving and her gorgeous tits straining against her tank as she tries to get all up in my face, I know I’ve got no chance of walking away.Because watching all of this, knowing everything it’s doing to my body and how I still feel about this woman, I’m wondering if I’m ever going to be able to leave this town again.
Well, isn’t that a big fucking turnaround.
I realize I haven’t said anything and as Kelsey stands there with her hands on her hips, chest still heaving, the only thing I can say is, “Well I fucking need you, Kels.”And then I close the distance between us and press my mouth hard against hers, stopping any more discussion.
She whimpers against me, almost as though she doesn’t want to give in.Her body is stiff in my arms and I can feel her heart pounding as her chest rests against mine.But then I do my thing, the one move that never failed to get Kelsey naked and beneath me.I run my hand slowly down her back until I reach the bare skin at the waistband of her shorts.I feel her body immediately respond to my touch and as I push my tongue into her mouth, I slip my fingers under her tank and run them all the way up her spine.
Kelsey groans into my mouth now and I can’t help but smile, knowing I’ve got her.I grind my erection into her hip, walking us towards the couch where I intend to strip off all her clothes, take her across my hips and have her ride me until neither of us can walk.
