Page 37 of Coming Home to You
“Oh Jesus christ, baby,” I say, licking the nipple that suffered the most from my mouth.“Fuck that was good.”
Kelsey’s body collapses against me and I wrap my arms around her waist so she doesn’t sink into the water either.The whole room is hot and filled with steam and as I sit here with this woman on my lap and my dick still pulsing inside her, I swear I could stay here forever.
“We made a mess,” she murmurs, her head resting on my shoulder.
I laugh, running my hands up and down her back before grabbing her ass.“We did.Fucking worth it though.”
Kelsey lifts her head and smiles at me.It’s lazy and almost drunk looking, and I can tell she’s still half dazed by the orgasms and sex.“Totally worth it,” she whispers.
Eventually she slides off and takes a seat beside me, my arm around her shoulders and her head resting on mine.We sit in silence for a few minutes, lost in whatever thoughts are going through our heads.
“What are we going to do, Beck?”Kelsey finally asks, her voice quiet.
I press a kiss to the top of her head as I glance at my watch.“First, we’re going to get dressed and get something to eat,” I say.“Then you’re going to stay in this room, while I go talk to Finn and Ryan and work out what our next move is going to be.”
“And then?”she asks, and the fear I hear in her voice almost breaks my heart.
I tighten my arm around her shoulders, dragging her around so she’s straddling my hips again.“And then I’m going to catch this fucker, Kels and make sure he never hurts or threatens you again.”Kelsey stares down at me and even though I can see in her eyes that she believes me, it still doesn’t seem like enough.This fucker has been ruining her life for months and although it might have started off as harmless, now, it’s clearly anything but.And it doesn’t seem to matter what Finn does, no one can find the fucking guy.On top of that, I know that if I had never broken up with Kels and left Rockport in the first place, none of this would be happening to her.
“Do you really think you will?”she asks, her voice small.
I smile up at her, swallowing my guilt as I say, “I don’t think, babe, I know.I promise.”
Kelsey smiles sadly before giving me a quick kiss and then climbs out of the tub.
My heart stutters in my chest as she does, and an empty, hollow feeling settles in my gut.Fuck, why the fuck did I say those words to her just then?The same exact words I used when she asked me something equally important back when we were kids.
It was a stupid incident, brought on by some tourists in Pop’s bar.But it came around the same time as me starting to talk about getting out of Rockport and doing something different.We’d had a few fights about it already and although it was never anything too serious, I know it was playing on both our minds.
On this night though, one of the girls in particular, had been pretty determined.She wouldn’t stop talking to me and touching me whenever she could.Even though I’d brushed her off, she didn’t seem to want to take no for an answer.Kelsey had come in and saw it and even though she knew nothing was going on, it hadn’t stopped her from asking me if I was happy, if she was enough for me.
I’d taken her face in my hands, pressed a soft kiss to her lips before saying, “Kels, you are more than enough for me.”
“You think?”she’d asked, her hands gripping my hips as though she was afraid of my answer.
My heart flipped at the thought that she didn’t realize how important she was to me.I’d kissed her again and said, “I don’t think, babe.I know.I promise.”
We’d gone back to my place after that and fucked like crazy all night, me promising again that she was everything I needed and more.Three months later I broke her heart when I packed up and left for Boston, leaving her wondering whether she really ever had been.
“Fuck,” I breathe out, running a hand through my hair as I climb out of the tub and grab a towel.There’s water everywhere and I throw a couple more down on the floor before walking naked back out to the main room.
Kelsey is already dressed and sitting on the bed looking through a couple of take-out menus for something to eat.She doesn’t look at me and I can tell she’s pissed or hurting or something.
Sighing, I grab two beers from the mini-bar before walking to the bed and sitting beside her.Handing one to her, I wrap my arm around her shoulders, pull her close and kiss her cheek.“I’m sorry, babe,” I say, not really sure what I’m apologizing for this time.The fact that Jason is still out there, the fact that I said those words or the fact that I left in the first place.
“I’m gonna order us some pizza,” she says, giving me a half smile as she reaches for her cell and places the order.
I exhale hard, not sure how to fix this right now.Instead, I grab my cell phone and punch in Ryan’s number.
“Beck,” he says when he picks up on the third ring.
“Summers, what are you doing?”I ask, taking a long swig of my beer.
Ryan laughs.“Didn’t I already tell you, a gentleman never tells.”
I grin.“Bullshit, a gentleman wouldn’t answer the fucking phone either.”
I hear Ryan laugh again as he says, “I’m a man of many talents, Beck.You should know that by now.”
