The strange thought tilts through me, makes me dizzy. I sway into her, and my cock, heavy and hot with need, kisses the curve of her ass.
Everything goes a little hazy.
I need. I need.
My fingers twitch on her arm, sinking into soft flesh. She makes a sound, not pained but undone.
I draw in a hard breath, my lungs burning. “Chess—”
The blaring tones of “Bohemian Rhapsody” cut through the room.
Mom.
It’s more effective than a blast of cold water. Instantly, I step away, my head clearing and my dick wilting. With a curse, I grab the phone and shut it off. Chess’s stare is a brand on my back, and my neck tightens.
“Who are you ignoring?” she asks in the thick silence.
With a sigh, I scrub my hand over my face. “My mother.”
With that one confession, I know I’ll have to tell Chess everything. I could keep hiding it, but I want Chess in my life, which means I have to let her all the way in, as painful as that might be.
Chess
Saved by Finn’s mother. I never thought I’d be grateful for that. And yet it feels true. Because a second ago? Jesus, I’d been blindsided by unexpected and unwelcome sheer lust.
Aside from his grip on my arm, Finn hadn’t even touched me. Didn’t matter. I’d felt every inch of him behind me, a wall of vibrating heat and intent.
I’d never experienced awareness like that, as if every nerve ending of mine were attached to his. He breathed, and I breathed with him. It had been all I could do not to beg him to touch me, slide his hand down into my pants so he could seek out the sensitive, swelling flesh that was slick and throbbing.
It still is. I’m thankful for this new distraction. “You’re ignoring your mother?”
Finn does not seem like the type to avoid family, but his expression turns mulish and guilty.
“I’ve heard that ringtone at least a half a dozen times since I’ve moved in,” I add. “And you never pick up.”
“You’re right,” he bites out finally. “I’m a total dick.”
He looks so forlorn yet tightly angry that I can’t find it in myself to even tease. “When we first met, I might have agreed,” I say carefully. “But I know better. You’re one of the good guys.”
“That doesn’t sound like a compliment,” he mutters, glaring off and rubbing the back of his neck.
“But it is. What’s going on with you?”
For a second, it seems as if he might not answer, but then he lets out an expansive sigh of defeat. “Fuck it. I want to talk to you about this.” Blue eyes full of pain meet mine. “I do. I just don’t think I can have this discussion here or I’ll lose it. I need some air.”
Ten minutes ago, I’d wanted to lick him like warm honey. Now it’s all I can do not to hold him like a wounded animal. But if he’s anything like me, he’ll balk at that. I keep my voice neutral. “Well, then, let’s take a walk.”
We go to the river walk where the sun shines bright and cheerful and the breezes off the Mississippi are stiff enough to carry painful words away in a flash. We’re silent for a while and pass a man playing “On the Sunny Side of the Street” on the trumpet.
Farther down, a group of completely ragged musicians who are probably my age sit on the ground, practicing bluegrass.
Finn’s fingers touch my hand, and I edge away out of knee-jerk habit. He makes a noise of irritation. “Take my damn hand, Chess. I’m not going to fucking cry or anything.” His long fingers seek mine out again and secure them in a snug grip.
“I didn’t say you were, Mr. Grumpy.” I thread my fingers with his. “There? We’re holding hands.”
“Finally,” he mutters.
I let that go and just walk alongside him, waiting for Finn to speak. When he does, his voice is tired and strained. “About eleven months ago, I went to a party and hooked up with Britt.”