In her and in me.
And when it finally broke, I wasn’t sure who would survive it.
I didn’t want to hurt her.
But it was a lie I told myself to stay sane.
Because I already was.
Every cold word.
Every hollow stare.
Every brutal dismissal.
It wasn’t just driving her away—it was dismantling her.
And somewhere deep in the rotted core of me, I knew I was setting the stage for something I couldn’t undo.
I was making her brittle and fragile.
Breaking her down into something I could hold in my hands.
And it wasn’t for mercy’s sake.
It was strategy.
Because when I took her—and I would—I needed her to trust me.
Stripped bare of resistance, pliable enough for me to extract every secret, every truth she had no idea she was keeping.
And I was making damn sure I was the only place she could turn when the bottom dropped out.
Her persistence was admirable.
But also, reckless.
There was something in her, something that wouldn’t be dismissed, a hunger for answers so fierce it was consuming her from the inside out.
She didn’t just want the truth.
She needed it.
The way a drowning woman needs air.
Like if she could just understand why the world had carved her into pieces, maybe she could stitch herself back together again.
Maybe she thought I was the key.
And maybe, in some twisted, cruel way—she was right.
I thought it was endearing.
But mostly, it was a liability.
And liabilities needed to be controlled.
But she kept saying my name, as if she’d known me for years instead of days.