Page 19 of Typa
He licked his lips and turned away from me. When he looked back at me, he said, “We both want to heal someone that doesn’t necessarily want to be healed. I want you, but I know that as long as you want him, it’s a waste of my time and energy. You want him, but right now, it’s a waste of time for you, because your family comes first in this situation.”
I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. Shaydon was such a good person and was fine as hell. I couldn’t understand why my heart wouldn’t welcome him in. He was younger than me, but he was so wise for his years.
“I’m pregnant with another man’s child. Why would even want me? I’m damaged goods, possibly broken beyond repair. I don’t deserve you, Shaydon. You deserve a woman that will love you as much as you love her . . . a woman that can appreciate you for the wonderful man you are . . . a woman that isn’t naïve enough to get pregnant and fall for an ex-con. I know my parents and family are so embarrassed by my actions. I’m beyond embarrassed. They should have disowned me.”
I broke down in tears and within seconds, Shaydon was in bed with me holding me in his strong arms. His embrace felt good, but I wouldn’t allow him to be a fool like I was. My situation was toxic at best, and if I knew Mythic like I thought I did, he would never allow me to move on anyway. As long as I had his child, I would be his, whether we were together or not, and most likely, I wouldn’t fight it. I tried to pull away from Shaydon, but he only held me tighter.
“It’s okay, Maui. Just relax, baby. I just want to be here. That’s it.”
He kissed my forehead, and I did as he said. I relaxed and let him console me. This was wrong though. I felt like I was taking advantage of him.Maybe how Mythic took advantage of my kindness and naivety.Despite feeling that way, I stayed in his arms until I fell asleep.
When my eyes opened, Shaydon was still holding me, but Ashanni was sitting in the chair. The minute she saw I was awake, she came to my bedside, causing Shaydon to get up. I glanced at him as he stared at me. I didn’t know if something had happened while I was asleep or what, because he was staring at me hard.
“Maui . . .”
She gently rubbed my head as she stared at me. “Hey,” I whispered.
She kissed my cheek, then glanced at Shaydon. He smiled slightly. “I can take a hint. Maui, I’ll call later to check on you. Okay?”
I nodded and gave him a tight smile. “Thank you.”
“No thanks needed.”
He winked at me and left the room. When I saw the smile on Ashanni’s face, I rolled my eyes. “What was he doing here?” she asked.
“He came to check on me. He was at the office when I found out what Mythic did to Seven,” I said, lowering my head. “I crashed the fuck out. That’s probably why my baby is trying to vacate the premises.”
The tears fell down my cheeks after voicing that. In my heart, I felt like that was what was going to happen if I didn’t get my shit together. It was hard to do that knowing that Mythic could die. He was in a coma. I knew Seven shot him in the arm to avoid killing him, but I also felt like Mythic didn’t want to be here if he couldn’t have me. He wasn’t fighting. My previous thoughts of him not letting me go seemed stupid now.
Ashanni got in bed with me, where Shaydon once was and held my hand. “Why were y’all looking at me weird?”
“In your sleep, you kissed Shaydon’s lips and grabbed his goatee.”
I closed my eyes and bit my bottom lip. I slowly shook my head. “He can’t be here anymore. I’m way too vulnerable. I was asleep, so I didn’t realize what I was doing, I can’t have him thinking there’s hope for the two of us. Mythic held me that way all the time, and I constantly grabbed his goatee. This shit is fucked up. I was angry, but now I’m worried about him. I miss him, despite what he did.”
“Are you going to go back to him?” she asked.
“No. I can’t turn my back on my brother like that. I just need to heal from it all and focus on my baby. I wish Mythic the best . . . I really do. I love him. The care he showed me is something I will never forget, but I can’t continue to go against my family, especially now that I know what he did. He could have gotten Seven killed. How do I disregard that?”
She swallowed hard, trying to keep her tears at bay. I took a deep breath, then asked, “How was Puerto Rico?”
“Hell, if I know. All we did was fuck. We needed that time to get it in like we wanted to. That man nearly fucked me into paralysis.”
I giggled. “You’re a married woman now. I’m so happy for you, Shani.”
“Thank you, boo. And you’re gonna be a mommy. I’m happy for you too. At the rate we’re going, I’m probably gonna be pregnant before I can count to ten.”
I giggled. “You may be pregnant already.”
“Shit, possibly.”
As we giggled like schoolgirls, there was a knock on the door. “Come in,” I said.
When Treasure walked in, I lowered my head. She was Mythic’s older sister. They were only a year or two apart. I lowered my head out of embarrassment. This whole ordeal was embarrassing.
“Hey, Maui! How are you feeling?”
“Hey,” I said softly as she hugged Ashanni and sat at the foot of the bed. “I’m okay. What about you? How is Mythic?”
