I stand at the head of the bench to spot him but he’s starting at a hundred, so he probably doesn’t need it yet. “It felt fucking great. I got the best sleep I’ve had in forever afterwards.”
“Sounds right. I’ve never slept better than when I sleep with Emmy.”
“So, tonight? What do I do with Cynnie?”
“You definitely don’t have sex,” Logan says. “You need to get to know each other, figure out your kinks and if they’re compatible, before you jump into bed.”
“Right. I mean, I wouldn’t.” Ihaveon the first date. HookIP, you know. But I get what he means. This is different. I need to get to know Cynnie as a personandas a little first. “What kinds of things do I ask?”
“Her fantasies are a good place to start. Don’t write them down like you’re making a list you’re going to tick off. Just listen to her. What are the common themes in her fantasies? Does she like being restrained? Does she need to be in a safe place like her bed or a castle, or does she want to be in a place she doesn’t know that’s a little scary like a dark cave? Does she want to be with someone who is familiar to her or a stranger? Does she want to be punished because she’s a naughty girl or rewarded because she’s a good girl?”
Both of us clear our throats and I’m pretty sure we’re having the identical thought.
“Anyway. Once you’ve listened to her fantasies, ask about her limits. Positives first with littles, always, then negatives.Approach correction and discipline that way, too. Positives first. She’s still your good girl, but she’s done something wrong and needs correction.”
“Man, just like dealing with a kid, then.”
“Uh-huh. Be ready for her to ask about your limits, too. Littles seek approval constantly. She’ll be worried about overstepping with you and want to know where she can’t go.”
“I’m not really sure what my limits are yet.”
“Tell her that. She knows you’re new to this and finding your boundaries.”
Logan sets the bar back in the uprights and curls up off the bench. “You’re up.”
“Thanks, man.” I settle into position and take the bar. Logan can out-lift me any day, but he usually starts at low enough weights that I can keep up for a while. “What about the really little stuff, like diapers?”
“Take it slow. Listen for diapers and pacifiers and bottles in her fantasies. If they’re not there, maybe do a couple of scenes with her and then ask if she’d have any interest drinking from a bottle? If she does, do a scene, see how it goes, and if she’s into it, ask if she’d like to wear a diaper. Keep it in scenes first, and then ask her if she’d like to wear it overnight.”
“With Emmy, does it blur from scenes to all the time?”
Because I already feel the tug towards that. I can barely see the contours of this thing, but I know that’s what I want.
“We still have defined scenes, usually every day or every other day, but she’s under my control all the time.”
A piece of the puzzle fits together inside me.
“Have you ever had her wear a diaper?”
“Not so far. She hasn’t made it a hard limit, but I suspect it is one. What’d you think when Jack told you Sammi was wearing one?”
I do a couple of reps while I consider his question. Pushing the bar into the uprights, I say, “I guess it’s just the idea of controlling something so fundamental. It’s, I dunnow, primitive, isn’t it?”
“Uh-huh.” Logan puts a pair of plates on the bar, and we swap places. “Although I haven’t had Emmy wear a diaper, I’ve controlled my sub’s bodily functions before. It’s very powerful.”
He huffs through a couple of reps and I watch him carefully. He usually doesn’t show much strain until we get over two hundred pounds, but it’s no surprise the last couple of days have taken it out of him.
“Warrin said that Jack’s strict with Sammi, and that Sammi needs that structure. How would I know if a little needs me to be strict?”
Logan racks the weights and breathes for a minute. “Trial and error. Is she a hot mess? Is she constantly late to everything, forgetful, can’t concentrate, can’t get major tasks done on time? That’s what Sammi’s like when Jack doesn’t have a firm grip on the reins. Sammi also acts out for attention. You saw it some at the playgroup. He knows so much better than to try to hug you without permission, even if he’s in very little space. If Jack didn’t pull him up, Sammi would be all over everyone he met. He’s like a Labrador puppy.”
The image makes me chuckle.
“Emmy’s not like that. But you’re pretty firm with her.”
“I am. Some of that’s just me. Some of it is that Emmy can be scatty if her Dom isn’t firm. She gets stuff done, but she has no schedule. She stays up all night, sleeps all day, spends weeks in her PJs. None of that stuff is exactly harmful, but she functions better if she has a bedtime and a more structured day. She says she’s written twice as much since I took over her schedule.”
“So, I’m looking for disorganization?”
