Page 48 of Between Secrets and Obsession
Liam
I’ll let you know when my flight is. Don’t contact me till then.
He responds with a winking emoji, which only makes my stomach turn. Control is slipping through my fingers, and there’s not a damn thing I can do about this right now. This will inevitably eat at me every day until it’s resolved, and my friends are no longer targets.
I sleep with one eye open and keep Maddie as close to me as possible without setting off any alarm bells. She’s already suspicious and has mentioned I’m acting weird, but I ignore her. I can’t risk any of the O’Leary men getting close to her. Though he gave me a week to return, I understand what his family is capable of, so I’m not taking any chances.
Maddie, Mason, Sophie, and I flew out to Utah Friday morning and spent the weekend celebrating Hunter and Lennon’s nuptials. The wedding was small and intimate with only close friends and family in attendance. I met Mr. and Mrs. Corrigan and tried to keep my mind busy helping where I could. I played with Alison and held Aaron while they cut the cake and had their first dance. I smile, thinking about how Maddie looked as though I’d grown a second head.
“What?” I asked, cradling the baby to my chest. He was only two months old and mostly slept and ate.
“You sure you aren’t gonna drop him?” Maddie teased. “Should I take him just in case you get a hint of commitment?” She held out her arms, but I shifted my body so she couldn’t take Aaron.
“Commitment?” I mused, arching a brow.
“Yeah, you might catch it or something. A wedding, babies, true love. Watch out,” she taunted, and while her bitterness stemmed from my rejection, I still thought it was adorable when she tried to get under my skin.
“I’m immune, so don’t worry about me.” I flashed a slow, smug grin, which caused her to roll her eyes.
Watching Hunter and Lennon dance as husband and wife had me thinking about how far they’d come. This was their second chance at love, and they deserved all the happiness inthe world after the loss they’d endured. It was hard to think about Brandon at times and everything he was missing, but a part of him still lived on in Alison. I knew he’d be glad to see his best friend and the love of his life find comfort in each other.
After the DJ told everyone to join the newlyweds on the dance floor, I handed Aaron off to Lennon’s grandmother, then walked over to Maddie.
Holding out my hand, I leaned over and whispered, “Dance with me.”
She blinked, eyeing my hand curiously as if I were holding a bomb. The last time we danced was the night of her birthday, and we ended up kissing. It was against my better judgment, but I wouldn’t take it back either.
“Alright,” she finally answered and let me lead her to the dance floor.
Wrapping my arm around her waist, I pulled her flush against me, not wanting any distance between us. I wished I could tell her the truth, but the less any of them knew, the better. I just wanted to get everything taken care of and move the fuck on with my life. Putting Maddie on their radar made me sick to my stomach. I’d do whatever it took to keep her safe, even if it meant having to walk away for good.
“You okay, Hulk?” Maddie asked me. “You’re not blinking.”
I hadn’t realized I was staring so intently until she spoke. “Yeah, Mads. I’m fine.” Though I smiled at her, she narrowed her eyes as if she could see right through my bullshit. She stepped closer until her head rested on my shoulder, and I inhaled the scent of her sweet shampoo. Maddie was always stunning, but today, she looked flawless in her bridesmaid gown with her dark hair pulled up. I had a perfect view of her neck, and my mind ran wild with images of kissing her soft skin.
Thinking back to that night, I let my guard down around Maddie, and although she wants more from me, I can’t. After my parents’ turbulent divorce and the pain on my father’s face after learning about my mother’s affair, I can’t even take love seriously.
To the outside world, they had the picture-perfect marriage, but behind closed doors, they were two strangers simply sharing a bed. Being that close to the betrayal and lies made me never want to be in that situation or allow myself to get close enough to get hurt. If it could happen to my father, who loved my mother more than life itself, then it could happen to me too.
I refuse to make myself vulnerable to that.
Maddie isn’t like any girl I’ve ever encountered with her sweet personality and sassy mouth. While she’s feisty as fuck, she’s also determined to work hard to make her dreams come true. There’s something so goddamn special about her, and I can’t ruin our friendship by sleeping with her.
I’ve never been in a serious relationship, and I’d inevitably fuck it up. I’d question everything, their trust and loyalty, but also my own ability to be enough. Even if I were interested in dating someone long-term, my job and frequent traveling would prevent me from having stability.
Before I get back to California, JJ sends me instructions to meet him in Vegas so we can discuss my repayment. As soon as I’m home, I pack clean clothes and take a shower before I pass out. I’m fucking exhausted, but I have no choice. To explain my unexpected departure, I tell my roommates I got a lead on a fugitive I’ve been tracking and need to leave before I lose him again. Mason buys it, considering this is what I do, but I can tell Sophie and Maddie have their suspicions.
The next morning, I leave early and arrive in Vegas. As I walk through the airport, my mind spins out of control, but I try to remain calm. I nearly drank myself stupid last night,hoping to numb the anxiety of what I’d be walking into. Today’s judgment day and time to figure this shit out. Put it behind me and make sure Maddie’s out of their grasp.
I take my carry-on and schedule an Uber then head to my friend Tyler’s house. I met him through Mason a couple years ago when Tyler was his boxing trainer before he moved. Now he helps me anytime I’m in Vegas for a job since I’m not comfortable checking my gun and don’t want to risk having it traced back to me in case anything happens.
“You want backup?” he asks after I strap on a bulletproof vest and holster my weapon. I slide on a leather jacket to keep everything hidden.
Knowing I can trust Tyler, I tell him the truth. “I’m not here for a job.”
He eyes me over his beer bottle as he takes a sip. “Really? Care to explain?”
I give him the washed-down version, explaining the gambling, meeting JJ, and losing the money that apparently wasn’t his to loan. After I say it aloud, I realize how fucking insane this is.
