Page 79 of Hockey Bois
It sucked.
They had complete radio silence for a good two weeks after the tournament. It was their brief “off-season,” the few weeks out of the year with no league games. Without hockey to hold them together, there’d been no need to talkbecause neither of them was ever going to address the elephant in the room.
Nick (3:14 p.m.)
am i crazy and just imagining this distance? like did i completely imagine that he was hitting on me and had planned this out??
Jenna May (4:05 p.m.)
No clue you’re the one who was there living it
HOWEVER I will point out that
1. You’ve told me the whole story and I don’t think you could have been imagining EVERYTHING
2. HE is the one who suggested sharing a room
3. If you were imagining everything why isn’t HE texting you now??
You two used to hang out a lot and now nothing? That means something *changed*
He feels weird about it too that’s why he’s avoiding you
Nick (5:47 p.m.)
what do i do??
Jenna May (5:53 p.m.)
Hell if I know
The healthy thing would be to talk about it
As I have been suggesting all along
How would that conversation even go?
“Hey, I thought maybe for a second there you wanted to fuck, and then you changed your mind. What gives?”
Nick (5:59 p.m.)
hard no on that
Jenna May (6:07 p.m.)
Then I got nothing for ya
In case you need to hear it though: This isn’t your fault
These are clearly Brady’s issues that he’s gotta work through
And unless he’s willing to do that, this was always gonna go to shit at some point
She had a point. If Nick always had a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach whenever he so much asthoughtabout talking to Brady, he couldn’t imagine how scared Brady must be.
The easiest thing to do (if not the “adult” thing to do) would be to move on. To put on his big-boy pants, make a conscious decision that this Brady thing was never going to happen, and go out of his way to act like he believed that. He’d open up those lines of communication again, invite Brady to pick-up or a beer, and broadcast non-flirty vibes the whole time.
Because no matter how much he’d like more, what Nick really wanted was his friend back. HemissedBrady.
